Blinded Love Boyxboy

Part 13 1/2: All Of Me #1

Song Of The Day: Stitches by Shawn Mendes

//Eli's POV//

Matthew fell asleep earlier than me. I'm still awake just holding him. He had no shirt on, just a pair of sweatpants. His hair is slightly curled and practically covering his whole face. He has one arm around my torso and the other is hidden under the pillow supporting his head. His mouth is slightly open and I can hear small snores coming out every minute or so.

I have my arm around his waist from under his, and my other arm was just resting on my stomach. I can't sleep. My mind just won't stop thinking...

Jonah...

Elliott...

Mom...

Dad...

Ring...

Eyes...

Darkness...

I shake my head trying to get the thoughts out of my head, but they won't stop.

Please Stop...

I close my eyes shielding the shimmer of light coming from the hidden bedroom window. thoughts corrupt my mind, but they soon drain as I felt the sleeping man cuddled up next to me move slightly and move his hand to my collarbone and stroking it.

My stomach started getting the same butterflies it always gets when I'm near Elliott. I started thinking of him. Of the love of my life.

Soon his head moved to the crook of my neck and I felt a soft kiss right under my jaw. I looked at my half awake boyfriend "Matty.." his voice is faded and tired. I looked him in the eyes, well his patches and answered "yeah babe?" he moved his body up so he was close to my face. I turned to my side so we could be face-to-face now Elliott moved his hands up and searched my face until his hand caressed my cheek. I leaned into the touch, grabbed his hand, and kissed his palm "you okay.." he said already up and slightly awake "no... to be honest I'm not, but it's nothing to worry about, love. Go back to sleep" I say kissing his forehead "what's wrong Matty. Tell me please. baby, I love you, so fricking much" his thumb runs across my cheek and gently kisses my lips. "Please tell me" snuggled into to his side and placed my cheek on top of his head

"I'm just thinking...of everything" the room goes quiet as I search my thoughts, the corrupting thoughts that always made my life a living hell. That made I could feel my mind drifting away

"define everything" I looked at him. admiring him

"I was thinking about Jonah. I was thinking about the ring I gave you and the ring he gave me. I though of my parents, how alone I was. When I thought about all that, I felt.... Useless... I felt... dead." I felt Elliott's grip tighten around me and hug me tight. his face was hidden in the crook of my neck, his lips brushed on my neck a few times. He kissed my neck a few times. I soon felt my shoulder start to damp a little. "But then I thought about you. How happy you make me. How nervous i get when I'm about to see you because I worry that I will do something to embarrass myself or you. But then I actually do see you and all my worries just fade away, and get replaced with butterflies and my heart pounding practically out of my chest when you touch me" I go to hold his hand

"When you hug me" I hold his hand to my lips and kiss the back of his hand

"When you comfort me" I lean in close and rub our noses together in a small but meaningful esquimo kiss. He just giggles and plays along, rubbing his nose against mine.

"When you kiss me" I go in and rub our lips together, asking for his permission. I can feel his smile form. Our lips move together in harmony. The kiss wasn't passionate, lustfiled, or rough. It was slow and lovin. Soon Elliott decided to go for dominance and leaned over me so that my back was against the bed. My hand moved to cup his face and hold his back where it curved. Pulling us closer. while his hands were roaming my chest, abdomen, and hips. Soon his hand positioned itself on my outer thigh, pulling it up, wanting me to swing my leg around his hips. So I did. My arms reposition themselves so that they were resting on his shoulders, bending around his neck. This action made him smile into our loving kiss. Soon both my legs were wrapped around his hips, his hands were either planted on the side of my head while his other hand was slowly sliding into the back of my checkered pajama pants. Lightly cupping my one of my ass cheeks.