Boats & Birds (Dazai X Reader)

Take My Hand, Take My Whole Life Too

You thought about what had happened between you and Dazai all days. You were nervous all the time. You became even more nervous when Dazai was around you. When you were in the agency, Dazai didn't leave you even for a second. He was talking about all the amazing cases he had solved and what they usually have to deal with. Kunikida didn't try to chop in. At least, Dazai was doing something connected with work. Usually, he was just hanging around till Kunikida got mad and made him do his work.

A few days have passed and today was Saturday, the day of your and Dazai's date. When you thought, that your anxiety couldn't get worse, this day has come. Nevertheless, it made you happy somehow. You know, the nervousness you get before the date, when you're talking with someone you love, when you're waiting for them to reply, it's not the bad kind of nervousness, which you get before an exam. Suddenly, all that lovey dovey stuff didn't look so stupid. You were young, you were in love and you were going a date with your crush! It's impossible to describe how you were feeling! (A/N:that feeling, when you're writing about a date and mutual feeling and you understand that your crush will never love you back, you've never even kissed and will probably end up all alone, but NEVER MIND)

You decided to wear your (f/c) dress, a jacket, a pair of black knee socks and your favorite shoes. Dazai said he was going to take you to a park so you decided to wear something stylish, but comfortable at the same time. You were standing in front of your mirror and you even liked how you looked like. It was strange for you because you thought, that one of the reasons of your loneliness was your ugliness. Well, your imaginary ugliness, to be honest.

Suddenly, you heard a knock in the door. You rushed to it and when you opened it, you saw Dazai greeting you with a smile and a bouquet of beautiful flowers.

"Oh, (Y/N), hi!" He said " That's for you!"

He handed you the bouquet and you took it

"Dazai, they're so beautiful !" You exclaimed and a slight blush appeared on your cheeks "Thank you so much!"

"Ready to go?" He asked

"Yeah, but first I have to put flowers in the vase or they'll wither. It won't take a lot of time. Come in." You said and disappeared inside of the house

Dazai waited you for only a couple of minutes. When you came back you said

"Well, we can go now."

You went out of the house and once you've locked the door, Dazai intertwined your fingers. His hand was soft and warm and you liked it.

"Why are your hands always cold?" Dazai asked when you started walking

"I don't know, actually" You answered " Anyway, I'm sorry!"

"Why are you apologizing?" Dazai asked

"Ehm..." You started panicking a bit " 'Cause...of my hands?"

Your answer sounded more like a question, than a statement

"But why?"

Only after asking this question Dazai finally understaood

"I've asked about your hands just because I was worried about you, not because I didn't like the temperature of your hand!" Dazai told you