Boats & Birds (Dazai X Reader)

I Don't Want To Set The World On Fire

You were ready to kill Dazai the next morning.

You woke up to the feeling of fingers brushing lightly against your cheek. Dazai was gently stroking it with his thumb. He was lying next to you. He was so close, that your noses were even touching. His hair looked messy and his cheeks we pinkish, but it made him look even more adorable, than he usually was. He was smiling softly and happily. His bandages loosened a bit and you could see his many scars.

He didn't say anything, nor did you. The silence was so peaceful and calming, that you didn't want to break it. You smiled the same smile as Dazai and pecked his nose. He giggled softly at this small action.

Dazai's next words ruined all the atmosphere

"Good first morning without your virginity." He spoke in a husky voice

First, you got stunned and you didn't even know how to reaction. Dazai started laughing loudly at your face and this was the moment, when you got angry.

"You ruined everything!" You exclaimed

Dazai started laughing even more and he even rolled over on his back. You got up, took your pillow and started choking him. (playfully, of course) Dazai only started laughing louder and he didn't even tried to resist your doings. You were laughing now too, but you didn't stop. You didn't care about the fact, that you were completely naked and so was Dazai. The blanket was now somewhere near your feet, but you weren't cold.

Suddenly, Dazai took your hands and pulled you close to his chest and the pillow, you were holding was now pressed to his chest too. Your faces were inches away from each other.

"Sorry, I just had to say it." Dazai apologized wiping away his tears

"One more joke like that and I will really kill you." You warned him, while blushing

"Oh c'mon, (Y/N), don't tell me, that you didn't like that?" He smirked "I don't think so, remembering how you moaned yesterday: "Dazai~! Dazai~! Faster~! Oh please~ I'm gon-..."

You didn't let him finish and you muffled him with your lips pressed to his. It was a gentle and loving kiss, not a passionate one at all. You moved your lips in sync and both of you were melting because of this. You were trying to explain how happy and released you felt now through the movements of your lips. Unexpectedly, one thought hit you: Dazai has spent almost all his life in the Mafia, then he escaped and worked in the Agency, but he was lonely. He didn't feel like human, he was haunted by regrets and memories so it was the first time, when he could peacefully spend a morning with a person he loved.

Little did you know, but you were right. Dazai enjoyed being loved and be loving as much as you did. It wasn't the first time, when he fell in love or when he slept with a girl, but it was the first time, when a person he was head over heels for loved him back and when he made love, not just had sex. Dazai also had to admit, that he has never loved someone so much. He was ready to give everything he got, to die, to be tortured to death, to destroy everything, to leave everything and everyone if it meant, that you would be safe, healthy and happy. He felt so sorry, that he didn't meet you earlier because he could be able to at least try to make you happy. He truly thought, that you deserved it more than him and that maybe, he was a little selfish by keeping you to himself.

When you parted, Dazai wasn't joking anymore. He was only staring at you and you could feel all the love he had to you in just this one look. He was looking closely at you lips, nose, cheeks, eyebrows, hair and especially, your eyes. He was looking with awe and tenderness as if he was looking at the most beautiful and gentle person in the world. Well, it was true: you were the most beautiful and gentle person in his world.

You ran your fingers through his hair, brushing it back and exposing his forehead. Dazai's body relaxed even more, than before, when you touched him.

"I don't really think, you realize how much you mean to me." Dazai whispered

You kissed his forehead and said:

"I can say the same to you."

***

When you finally got out of bed, you were already late to work and Dazai even suggested to stay home, but you made him to go. Kunikida would be extremely angry if you skipped work because the amount of cases and paperwork recently was incredibly big. On time or later, it doesn't matter, but you had to go.

Dazai was now making tea, while you were slicing bread. Dazai was only wearing his boxers, while the only things, that you were wearing were your panties and one of Dazai's t-shirts. The t-shirt was too big for you and it was almost like a short dress. You secretly enjoyed Dazai's scent.

Dazai turned on the music and it was quietly playing in the background. He started singing along with it and you even started dancing a little.

"I don't want to set the world on fire." Dazai was singing "I just want to start a flame in your heart."

Suddenly, you felt a pair of hands wrapped around your waist. Dazai started wiggling with you from side to side.

"Come on, (Y/N)! Let's dance!" Dazai whined

"Dazai, we're already late." You said

"So what?" Dazai asked "Kunikida would be just a little angry, don't worry."

Dazai took your wrist and pulled you into a slow dance. He wrapped an arm around your waist, while the other one was holding your hand. You were moving slowly, but in perfect sync. The dance was rather sloppy and lazy, but it was an ideal morning dance.

"In my heart I have but one desire." Dazai continued singing "And that one is you, no other will do."

He twisted you and you giggled softly.

"I've lost all ambition for worldly acclaim." You started singing "I just want to be the one you love."

Next words, you sang together

"And with your admission that you feel the same, I'll have reached the goal I'm dreaming of, believe me!"

Dazai wrapped two arms around your waist to hold you tight and lowered you a bit.

"It looks like a scene from a romantic musical!" You laughed happily

"Oh how I wish, our lives were a musical!" Dazai answered and started laughing too "Well, we can always pretend, that we are heroes from a musical ."

"Our musical must have a happy ending, then!" You exclaimed

Dazai was about to answer, when he was interrupted by a buzz coming from your phone. You groaned in frustration, but you had to check it.

Dazai lifted you up and you headed to the table, grabbing your phone.

"Was it a call or a message?" Dazai asked you coming closer to you

"It's a message." You answered "From Port Mafia."