1.21.2017
Okay.....so I'm still getting use to this whole 'girl' thing..I identified 'ftm' for so long...that it just seems foreign ya know? I feel more...confident when I present as a guy....and when I'm a girl I feel really...vulnerable. I use to identify as a girl and was happy once upon a time. but then I started feeling more comfortable with the idea of being a guy...it just felt more..natural.
I feel like being a girl...everyone is watching..you are so pretty..so beautiful..so this..so that. as a guy...that is less..noticeable. less.
I also feel like as a guy,I might be able to protect my fiance more..so I was really convinced...I still don't really know myself right now..and I hope I'm not going to be judged.
I read a book on here called 'trapped in the wrong body' and it just made me think...maybe it ISN'T bad to be a girl. maybe it is okay to be a girl.
so today...is the first day I have dressed like a 'girl' I still don't know what to think..and I still feel like I'm on the 'genderfluid' spectrum. I just feel like maybe the 'girl' portion of that isn't so bad. because their are days when I feel like a total male, and their are days when I feel like a 'girl'. So today I presented as a girl...and it isn't that bad^-^; when my hair grows longer I can do my 'harley quinn' style x3
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HER Journey;HIS Perception
Kurgu OlmayanWoohoo ^-^; I have made it this far^-^; So this book is basically just me and my everyday life. I was struggling with MPD and feeling like I was a dude trapped in a women's body and even when I was finally released from the the personalities----I st...
