Gender Fluid? Pansexual?

What's Happening?

Remember the girl who broke my heart???

Literally what is happening...

So, let me start from the beginning.

So, my girlfriend is friends with the girl who broke my heart, EXpai, if you will. (I hate myself. XD)

So my beloved was talking to EXpai about me and about how I miss EXpai, which isn't a lie. I truly do. I still low key stalk her Wattpad, even tho she never gets on.

Well, EXpai said that she had to think about she and I being friends again. And I'm just like, "bitch."

Anywho, this is going to be an anxious week. The chance that she may talk to me... And Wednesday is tryouts for my school musical, which I'm trying out for. And then... Friday... I have a DENTAL APPOINTMENT

I haven't mentioned this, but when I was seven I busted my smol top lip open. As a result, my two front teeth and the one to their left got knocked into my upper lip.

I had oral surgery.

Now, as expected, that was a traumatic even for a smol bean, so I'm a bit scarred.

And by a bit I mean I have panic attacks even when they have me on the gas and they give me at least 5 mouth shots.

Did I mention this isn't a cleaning. I had a cavity and I have to get it filled so that's what I'm talking about.

Either way, my last two visits (when they pulled teeth a year or so ago) I literally passed out after. Like, not lightheaded. I legitimately passed out.

I have a scar on my upper left cheek from having passed out on my kitchen floor. I also have a scar on my upper left lip from the oral surgery.

I'm a mess!!!

Well, just thought I'd give you an update on my faggot ass life. (Sorry if someone gets offended by that word, a lot of people do.)

Speaking of getting offended, let me know if something in here offends you that ISNT opinionated. As in a word or something. Not my personal opinion. If that offends you, I'm sorry, but I can't change that.

Uhh... Let's see.

Question of the chapter!

Have you ever had a traumatic experience such as mine, and if so, what?

Love you guys! You're amazing. When I started this... Thing? I didn't think it would get this far. And what is a book without readers?!

Thanks so much, even if you've been here since the beginning, if you're just starting here, or if you're reading this somewhere in the future.

I've also gotten PM's from people saying how much of an impact this has made on them, and so many other nice things in my message box, or even just in the comments, and I'm so grateful for that!

Sorry for ranting. You... Lamps!

You guys are lamps now.

Kill me. XD

~Ismauu