beacon hills

chapter 6- i cant

I woke pretty early, I didn't want to go to school,and face Theo. But I had zero choice. I spent the rest of my time pacing the floor of my room, I peered out my window and saw stile's jeep pulling in to my driveway I took a deep breathe and grabbed my bag walking out of my room.
Its not that I couldn't hold it together in the same room as Theo, its just I'm still in love with him and I just want to hug him and tell him its gonna be ok. I just wish I could change him.

Theo's POV

I couldn't think, or sleep. Seeing her was like a blow to the heart, like it shattered in my chest. Seeing her shocked expression and her eyes begin to tear up,made me shatter inside everything I tried wasn't working to try and stay strong.
Seeing her cry and scream at me, I wanted nothing then to cry with her and hold her breathing in her hair that always seemed to smell like roses, and hear her laugh again, kiss her, hold her tight and tell her I would keep her safe.
She was my everything, the only person I could care about and actually love, but I got scared,I let her in and trusted her and she loved me, last time that happened I got hurt. So I left, I didn't say anything cause I felt that would hurt her less. But seeing her like this I hurt her more and I let everything that happened there fall on her all that blame on her. I ruined her life.
I grab my bag and left my house, I needed to get her back, I needed her, I miss her I dont feel safe like I did with her. I need her trust, like before, I need to apologize.

Mackenzie's POV

I sat in the back seat looking out the window
"Are you gonna be ok today?"
A voice called,I looked up seeing Scott looking at me I nodded shyly
"I'll be ok"
I said quietly looking down at my feet
"Mackenzie dont think we trust him, its just he's our only way to them we can use him"
Stiles said looking at me through the rearview mirror I nodded looking back at Scott who seemed to agree.
It hurt a bit know they were gonna use him but it was complicated, one side of me couldnt give a fuck if he for what he deserved, but the other wanted to protect him and hide him away.
We pulled into the parking lot, parking.I for out grabbing my bag,
"Just stay calm and ignore him, although I dont think he'll try and talk to you anyway "
Stiles commented getting out of the car along with Scott,i rolled my eyes shaking my head as we walked into school
"It wasn't that bad"
I said getting equal between them Scott and stiles looked at each other before straight at the school "I wasn't that bad!.....was I?"
I yelled whispered, getting a little worried if I was to violent, but he deserved it.
"You wolfed out and pinned him against the wall"
Stiles said I sighed throwing my head down
"But you had every right to be angry"
Scott mentioned I nodded cause he was right he deserved that and more. But would I inflict the kind of pain he did to me? No, its not right in my eyes to do things to someone else to get even, it only makes you feel worse. Its a rough an complicated situation with Theo and I, a lot of mixed feelings.
"I dont want you guys thinking I'm not gonna be able to control myself around Theo, I'm not gonna continue and try to hurt him till I'm even, last night shouldn't of happened the way it did"
I said feeling embarrassed and ashamed I shouldn't have put my hands on him.
"No one worries about that, and if something did happen none of us would shun you or think you were a horrible person, you were angry it happens"
Stiles said as we walked into the school, I didn't know our plans for the dread doctors or anything or what would happen with Theo.
I looked up seeing him leaned against a locker, he made eye contact but I quickly looked away walking to my locker
"If you need anything you call one of us ok?"
Stiles against standing with me by my locker
"Ok I will"
I smiled putting some stuff in my locker
"Well here comes malia, you got her for now"
Scott laughed as the two walked away
"Hey Mackenzie...are you ok?"
She asked as I shut my locker turning to her as I leaned on it
"I'm fine...just gonna ignore him for awhile"
I said looking back at my locker
"That doesn't sound like a bad idea, I might try that out"
She said laughing I smiled laughing along the bell begun to ring signaling it was time to get tot class
"Well I'll see you later "
Malia said walking off I smiled and waved bye, I walked down to English class feeling someone's eyes on me, I knew who they belonged to.
I sat in the middle of the room next to Kira who was already here I sighed plopping down in my placing my face in my hands
"Are you ok?"
Kiras voice whispered near me
"Yeahhh, just tired "
I said looking up at her
"You saw Theo huh?"
She asked moving her pencil between her fingers I shook my head "yeah, I did, but I dont care honestly "
I spoke looking towards the door seeing non other then the man himself. I quickly glanced away and focused on Kira feeling his eyes on me the whole time it took for him to get to his desk.
"Just-"
I stopped her giving her the "dont"face she knew why , he could and was listening to us.
She nodded softly
"just, focus on this test and worry about the stupid math quiz later"
Kira said shrugging making a quick recovery I could practicality hear his smirk from behind me.
"Ok class you have 40 minutes to finish this test your time starts now"
The teacher called pulling out headphones and beginning to watch something on the computer.
I sighed and pulled out my pencil beginning this dreaded test Kira was right,I was worried about my math test so that was true. I hated math so much words can't explain.
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After school
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The school day was so long and it didn't help having almost every class with Theo, and his eyes constantly following me, I didn't have to be a wolf to know it was killing him how I ignored him. I was quick to get out of there,me and Kira had gone back to my house for "homework" really it meant we were given a task by Scott to go over a map of the town, tunnels and all to try and figure out a few Guess's to where the dread doctors lair was. I honestly had no idea, it could be anywhere, this town ad so many secret tunnels, abandoned homes it was ridiculous.
"Could it be that abandoned mansion?"
I pointed to a house but that would be to obvious
"No, that's a little to in the open dont you think?"
Kira asked looking up at me, I sighed and put my head in my hands
"This is pointless, there's to many possibilities on where it could be we need to narr-"
I was cut off by kiras phone ringing she picked it um before saying a quiet "ok we're coming "
She looked over at grabbing her bag
"Well I think we just narrowed it way down there was a radio call about a big beast like figure by the electrical plant stiles and Scott are picking us up "
Kira said jogging out of my room , I grabbed my jacket and phone quickly following after her,I walked out of my house seeing stiles pulling up
"Get in"
Scott called motioning to the back I nodded and quickly piled in next to liam and Kira next to me. Theo was behind me in the back.
The car side was silent no one knew what was going on or what we we're preparing for but according to Kira it was a beast.
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We pulled up to the plant seeing a few sparks flying and a police car outside, lights on and the door hanging open.
We all hopped out of the car stopping when a loud roar rang from the plant the door was open and soon a scream followed. We all looked at each other before back towards the door seeing a women in a police uniform running out dropping her gun and flashlight.
She grew closer, and closer screaming
"Run!"
She screamed running past us we all looked watching her run down the street, another roar sounding causing us all to look back at the door. I saw a black figure that was tall bend the door frame and walk through standing tall, the only thing we could do was run or fight.
"Stiles , Lydia get in the car and leave "
Scott said making us all look towards him, so I guess Scott decided, we fight.
Lydia and stiles looked at us unsure what to do.
"Go now!"
Scott yelled ,the beast begun to take a step forward,and another there time to get out of here was closing.
They quickly got and the car and left
"what do we do?"
Theo's voice called, I almost forgot he was even here
"We fight"
Scott said looking towards the beast his eyes turning red and claws coming out, I looked towards everyone else as they all changed and Kira brought her sword eyes changing orange, all that was left was me.
I bowed my head my claws coming out and fangs, my eyes turning a dark bright blue.
I looked up the beast growling, I growled lowly before charging with everyone else at it.
It ran at us roaring loudly reaching up its hand and swinging it down hitting liam ,kira and malia. I took an opportunity and hit my hands down on its side sending waves of electricity through my hands into the beast it froze falling over but I knew that wouldn't stop it. I smiled walking backward keeping my eyes on it as I did I looked back to liam, kira and malia who were getting up.
"Mackenzie watch out"
Theo's voice yelled I looked back seeing the beast reaching his arm up and before I could move it came down but someone tackled me to the ground before it could drive its claws into me I heard loud stomps signaling its departure. I looked up seeing Theo wrapped around me smiling smally I almost wanted to smile back. I pushed him off me and got up
"Mackenzie" his voice whispered but I stopped and turned around
"Your not gonna do this to me again, try and save my life and then act like everything is back to normal, thanks but i-i can't "
I said walking away about to cry
"Mackenzie"
Scotts voice called but I ignored it
"I'm fine I'll walk home"
I said walking quickly down the road back home. I know this looks bad,he saved my life, but I can't look into his eyes, see that smile again. It was all coming back to me all the times we spent together all the good times. He was my everything my anchor, when he left I lost control, I had outbursts and stopped going to school for a week and then we left.
I started to crying falling onto the ground , why did he half to break me, why does he make me feel like this.
Someone was coming I could since it but who I didn't know I couldn't focus I just cried harder.
"Mackenzie"
A voice called, Theo's as much as I wanted to get up and walk away I couldn't I had not fight left in me.
A hand fell on my shoulder and I was turned into his chest, I missed him so much that I didn't stop him from hugging, I just cried ,his band held my head rocking me

THEO'S POV

I didn't know what I was doing but I missed her so much I had to chase after and make sure she was ok even if she didn't want me to. And holding her in my arms again, it felt like home. And feeling her hold onto me even though she probably is still mad at me.
I regret everything, I regret working with them, but I've done to much here how do I get out of that?.
   I've started something that Now is unstoppable, i brought all those teenagers to life again and the dread doctors are having me run them as if they're my pack.
They're gonna kill me if I dont and I dont want to lose Mackenzie.

MACKENZIE'S POV

"Its ok"
His voice called I wiped my eyes and pulled away
"I-i can't Theo I gotta go home "
Was all I could say before standing up, I think he understood as he just looked at me as I left I just can't trust him.
It was a lobn walk but hopefully I could clear my head.