Touch (Jerrie Fanfiction)

Chapter 5

A/N Warning: This is the saddest chapter so far, you may want to prepare some tissue with you...

Perrie's POV

Jade suddenly pulled out her hand and I don't know why. I looked at her hoping she would do the same but she never looked at me once. She just looked out at the window at the other side, ignoring me for the whole ride. What have I done? I had been thinking about all the possible reasons but I couldn't find any. I wanna cried right now. I wanted to ask her to forgive me for anything I have done wrong, but I didn't want to beg her for attention cause I was afraid she would hate me more. Please don't hate me...again.

After 30 minutes of agonizing ride, we arrived at the mall. No one had spoken throughout the ride and I think Lesy sensed the tension between Jade and I. We got out of the car and Leigh gave me a look implying she wanted to know what was going on. I shook my head and immediately looked at the ground as I was on the verge of tears . She came to me and pulled me into a hug. I couldn't hold back my tears anymore so I let the tears falling down on my face. Leigh kept rubbing my back and comforting me saying everything would be okay. I felt myself slowly calming down and when I pulled myself away, Jade and Jesy were not here anymore.

"They went into the mall. I told Jesy to take Jade away because I know there is something up between you two, so we want to speak to you two separately." Leigh explained and I nodded. "She hates me" I muttered. "What? NO! Jade would never hate you Perrie." She put her hands on my shoulder and looked at me solemnly. She already did once.

-Flashback-

We had just finished our performance at the Hardrock Cafe and we didn't have any event anymore, so now me and Jade were on our way to the hotel as we were tired, where Lesy decided to tour around the town. My heart was still full of joy because of what happened back then. It was all like a blur as everything was happening so fast. But I do remember me and Jade were acting all lovey dovey on stage. I beamed at the brunette beauty who was now sleeping next to me with her head on my shoulder. This is the best day ever. I put my arm on her waist and pull her closer to me and lay me head of top of hers. I closed my eyes and let all the memory flowed back.

I frowned when I remember our "almost kiss". To be honest I would have kissed her if she didn't pull away. I don't think I could stop myself when those soft and kissable lips were so close to mines. I had dreamt of kissing Jade for so many times and I don't think I would just let the opportunity slips away. I sweared if I just leaned in one more inch, I could touch those lips. Just one touch is enough. But obviously it was not she wanted, she pulled away. She just took it like a joke and she definitely doesn't have feeling for me. Why would she want to kiss you you idiot? I should feel relieved she had pull away, otherwise she would hate me if I did kiss her.

My mind was running every different scenario. What if she feels the same way? What if I confess to her? What if she hates me? What would happened to the band? I should feel happy because of what happened back then, but my mind just won't stop thinking what if more had happened?

I opened my eyes and stared at Jade's beautiful face. I raised up my free hand and softly caressed her cheek. I wish you were mine but there is a line between us that I should never cross. I can't risk to lose you Jade. I didn't realize I was crying until I felt tears falling down.

The next couple days I had never mentioned anything about that day cause I think it would be the best to let everything back to normal. Sometimes Lesy would bring it up but I would just change the topic. It's almost like a taboo to me. Thinking about that day would just light up the fire inside of me and I might do something stupid that I would probably regret. And I can't let it happen. Jade never said anything about it either but I noticed she had became very quiet and I don't know why. Maybe she was just tired as we were doing promotion for our new album nearly everyday.