Everything Changes

Chapter 8

Katie Atwood

Well, today we have an appointment with the wedding planner. It's been a couple months from the engagement and were planning to get married in May, and that's about two or three months away. So we have to get going. It's seems like everything is going way too fast. And why does Thomas want to get married so early? Well, all he said I had to do was pick out the dress, tell the planner the color theme, and get myself ready.

We made a date. May 2nd, 2014. I'm kinda scared. Because after we're married, I'm his.. He could abuse me all he wants, and nothing would happen about it. I don't want kids right away, but hell, he'll probably hit his way through it. It won't matter what I want.. When we got back home, I ran to the bathroom because I didn't feel so good. Everything we ate for the past 2 days came up.. He didn't do anything about it, he just sat there on the couch watching soccer. All he said was " Go to bed.". Every since I said yes, he's been a bigger asshole then ever. I just want to call it all off, but I love him.. I don't know what I'd do without him. I stopped puking, and climbed into bed. That night he wouldn't sleep with me. He slept in the living room. I feel so alone.. Is this what you're supposed to feel when you're engaged to the man of your dreams? Well, he's not the same man he was two years ago.. And I hate it.. I cried myself to sleep that night..

I woke up to yelling. I slipped my shirt on and walked into the kitchen. Thomas wouldn't look at me. He grasped onto the kitchen counter, looking Down to the ground. I asked him what was wrong but he yelled at me to go away. So I did. I went to try and sleep again.. But his screaming kept me up.

"Ring, Ring, Ringgg" it was my phone. Adam! "Morning beautiful!" I could feel him smiling through the phone. Haha! "Morning" I whispered.

"what's up?"

"He might do it again.."

"Katie why are you even marrying that guy?"

"I love him. But I'm not sure if he loves me as much anymore."

"Ask him."

"No way. He's drunk again. I don't know why he's mad right now."

"Come home then!"

"I am home. Home is where the person you love is at."

There was silence. "Sorry kat. I have to go. I'll talk to you later. The next time I see you is at your wedding. I still get that dance." he joked.

"GoodBye Adam. " I whispered.

I want to go home. Home is where Adam is. Home isn't here. I love Thomas, but I can't go through with this. I was about to turn on the tv but he threw the door open. He ran and jumped on the bed. He put his hands around my waist, and rested his head in between my neck and shoulder. "I love you Katlynn. So much." he whispered In my ear. Oh god.. How can I not love him?! I've loved him ever since my sophomore year in high school! "I love you too Thomas!" I said happily. This was the most love ive felt in a month.

We slept through the whole night. Thomas never tried anything, even when he's drunk, because he knows I want to wait till after we're married. That's the biggest promise he made to me. That we'd wait. And I guess, it's going to happen in a little while. I want to wait till after marriage, because ill have him, and he'd stay. He'd stay because he'd know it would be his. I never really thought otherwise.

Thomas had to get up early for work. So I was alone. It was kinda relaxing but eerie. I just couldn't wait Till he gets home. He got home at the usual time but looked sad. He put his finger on my lips before I could say anything. He led me to the living room couch. "I need to tell you something. And it's killing me that I never told you". He frowned. I was worried. I nodded my head for him to continue. "It happened 2 days before I came for christmas.. I cheated on you..". I didn't think that would EVER come out of his mouth. Yeah he hits me, but he cheated too?!... I started to tear up and ran to the purple bedroom. I locked the door behind me, sat down, and took my phone out to call Adam.

"Hello?" he answered..

"He cheated.." I cried.

"What?! Are you still going through with the wedding?"

"I want to.."

"Katie, you'll get hurt even worse!"

"Don't tell me that, when I already know it!"

"Then why won't you call it off?!"

"Atleast he confessed! And he said he got drunk and never meant for it to happen. I love him.. And I'm gonna go through with it, no matter how much I get hurt."

"I'm not coming then. If you were smart, you'd let him go. But no, you're as dumb as the others! He'll keep hitting you! And it will rub off onto your kids! If you ever have them."

"You won't come..." I cried.

"No. Unless I change my mind.".

"Fine! You know if you really loved me as you're bestfriend again you'd be on my side! You'd be supporting me! But I guess, that's gone now."

He was silent.

"I have to go. Bye Adam. "

And I hung up.

Who does he think he is?! He doesn't know how much I love Thomas. No matter what happens, I'm going through with this wedding! And not even Adam can stop it.