Wisps 《A BTS Suga Fanfic》

Chapter 22

Seeing the hurt in Yoongi's eyes when I ran from him made me want to go running back. Jump into his arms and sob my eyes out, have him tell me everything was fine, but I didn't do that. Because I knew that nothing was fine, nothing was ever going to be fine, letting Yoongi into my life would put his life at danger too. So I ran, away from the only people who cared, so that they could remember me as someone worth caring for. And not a monster. I slammed the door in Yoongi's face sure that if I heard him call after me again I would give in. I sprinted down the stairs and to the exit door. Too numb to care about anything else. Pushing open the door I was welcomed by humid sticky air. Rain poured from the sky as if mocking me. Everything was grey and muddy, dark clouds loomed over the buildings. Few people were out, all huddled away from the rain. I stepped out into the downpour, immediately getting my clothes soaked through. I pushed the soggy hair away from my face and walked down the street. 

The water falling on my eyelashes and down my face made it hard to see and walk. I constantly blinked and wiped at my eyes, not knowing if I was wiping away rain or tears. My converse sloshed around, filling with water. 

Eventually after walking till my legs were numb, I headed to a park bench. The raining never ended, less and less people were on the streets leaving me alone on the cold park bench. Despite it being extremely humid and hot, I was shivering from the wetness of my clothes and hair. My hair stuck to my face, neck and arms, goosebumps covered my legs. I cupped my hands over my knees biting down on my lip as I cried silently. I had endless tears today it seemed. All the tears I had held back in my life poured out of me at that instant making me feel pathetic and weak. I scoffed rubbing my eyes, I'm so stupid. 

Bora hates me...she called me a monster

I ran from Yoongi even though he cared so much about me

My magic is somehow back

The wisps are going to kill me if I go back

And even if I don't they'll track me here and then kill me

My suitcase is at Bora's house

I left Finn and my bag at BTS's recording room

I even forgot my phone!

I groaned, the reasons for my sadness getting more and more ridiculous. I let out a soft sad chuckle. I lifted my face up to the rain, feeling the drops on my face.

'AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!' I screamed into the air. More tears streaming down my face.

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I sat there for what felt like hours. Eventually, I ran out of tears, I've accepted that my friendship in Bora was over. What did I expect, the 'witches' as she called them had killed her family, she wasn't the forgiving type. She was too traumatized to forgive me anyway. I decided that somehow I was going to have to go back to my house. If it came to it, the Wisps would kill me... I wasn't sure how I would go back to my house, I didn't have enough money for a plane or train ticket. Obviously my magic was unstable and I wouldn't have been able to fly home. Maybe I could walk or hitchhike. My mind was too numb with sadness and...

If I went back to my house, I would be leaving my home. A home was where you felt safe and happy, where your family was. Yoongi was my home...I really didn't want to leave my home. I remembered Yoongi's smiling face and grinned

'Gosh, why am I always thinking about you pabo.' I mumbled to myself. Where was he anyway? Did he forget about me and move on, or was he hurting just as bad as me? I hope my home wasn't hurting, especially not about me. 

I looked up, finally observing my surroundings for the first time since I sat down. It was much darker now, I guessed around 6:00. I had only ate an apple and the ice pop today, but I couldn't really feel the hunger. The rain was still coming down, but a little lighter now.