Here's Love ➤ Niall Horan

25. I Like You

Chapter 25. I Like You

I really never meant for my feelings to get stronger. Really. But they did. And now I'm screwed.

I am REALLY screwed. These feelings are strong, and are gonna be hard to get rid of.

I've tried not feeling this way, trust me. I've tried so hard to ignore Moni or point out all the bad things about her, but it's impossible. Well, for me. I see her as perfection, 'cause I'm so captivated by her. She's so wonderful. It's hard NOT to fall for her.

I even tried having feelings for other girls. Girls who are much much different than Moni, but I don't want them. I want Moni.

It's also hard to find girls who are unique and nice. A lot of girls are like Ashley. They only care about certain things, and are selfish. It really is hard to find girls who are able to be loved. But Moni is a girl that isn't really able to be loved, cause she'll never return the feelings. Well, unless you're her 'husbands' or just are a very good person.

No, I haven't fallen for her. I just have strong feelings towards her. I've been running from what I wished for. Love. I'm running away from the fact that these strong feelings could turn into even MORE.

So here I am, alone with Moni...YET AGAIN. This has been happening for a fucking month now. All the boys purposely leave me alone with Moni. I mean, it sort of has been working. Moni's been nicer, but that's maybe because I've stopped doing stupid stuff.

" I'm bored," Moni says. We're literally doing nothing today. We're just on Tumblr...which was made because of Aneliz.

" Me too. Movie?" I ask. She nods. We start looking from my collection, and I shiver when I see The Notebook.

" Why do you have The Notebook?" she asks. Good question...why do I have The Notebook?

" Must have accidentely taken it from my mum," I shrug. It wasn't The Notebook, but we end up watching a romantic movie. Just to make fun of it of course.

" It's so unrealistic!" Moni yells.

" I know right?" I laugh.

" How cliche too. Boy falls in love with his best friend and doesn't want to tell her, but then tells her accidentely and she feels the same way. At least they could've made it A LITTLE different forom other movies," Moni rolls her eyes. That's true. But does that mean it'd be cliche to tell Moni I like her?

As the movie goes on, I see that the two best friends like each other and live happily. I wish that could be me and Moni...

" If my best friend was in love with me, I'd want them to tell me," Moni says. Shit.

Should I tell her? Everyone has been trying to convince me to tell her, but I'm afraid. What if it ruins our friendship?