Here's Love ➤ Niall Horan

Prologue

Edited 7/16/1

Here's Love

Prologue

- Niall-

"I love you."

"I love you more."

"No, I love you more."

"NO, I love you more."

"I get it! You guys love eachother!" I yell. God, couples in love are the most annoying thing. Them and they're stupid PDA. Like jeez, keep it to yourselves, not everyone needs to know how in love you are. Especially me. I could live not knowing or hearing their stupid conversations.

"Well babe, looks like we're annoying Niall," Louis says. Even though I've basically insulted him and his girlfriend, that stupid little grin on his face is still there. Bleh.

"Oh, sorry Niall! Okay, you hang up first!" Eleanor giggles. 

"No, you hang up first!" Louis says. God damn them, ugh! I grab Louis' phone and end the call before Eleanor can say ' No, you hang up first' again.

"That was mean," Louis states and grabs his phone from my hands. I mean, yeah, it was rude to do that and all but you understand why I did it right? They were getting on my nerves.

"Yeah well, it was annoying to hear you guys talking lovey dovey," I say. Love. I cringe at the stupid and foul word.

"Sorry mate," Louis apologizes and heads out the room. I mean, it's not that I don't like Louis and Eleanor or anything, I'm actually quite happy he's found love, especially with a girl as wonderful as Eleanor. I really am glad for them, but they are SO annoying. And it's not just Louis & Eleanor...

I mean, Zayn is freaking engaged. ENGAGED. Engaged to Perrie freaking Edwards. Perrie's a lovely girl as well, I'm happy for them. Wow...I'm a bit bipolar.

And then there's Liam. Liam's in his stupid honeymoon faze with Sophia and it's sick. I don't know much about Sophia, I've barely met her. When Liam was with Danielle, I must admit, he seemed happier. Enough about him though, basically what I'm trying to say here is:

I'm jealous. Jealous that they've found love. Not only once, but at least another time too. I've never had love. Sure, I had ONE girlfriend before but that's about it. I never loved her. What 16 year old ACTUALLY falls in love?

I just feel like it's taking a little too long for me to find love. I want it; I want to be able to call someone mine. I want to have everything Louis and Eleanor have, what Zayn and Perrie have, what Sophia and Liam have. I want that.

I just can't find the right girl. All the ones I meet are always screaming in my face that I'm 'Niall Horan from One Direction!' Have I ever heard just Niall? Maybe a couple times but they still weren't the one.

The thing about our fame: we can never know who really wants to be friends with us. The real us, not how we're portrayed on magazines and stuff. There are so much famous social climbers trying to get all over the media while with us, we're trying to get away from it. People will use us, and I don't like being used. I've already changed so much because of the fame.

My teeth were crooked.My style was bad. I was the different one of the band. Though I still am, people just stopped sending me that amount of hate. I'm finally good enough in their eyes, but to me, I don't see myself in the mirror sometimes. This man, muscles and snapbacks. I wasn't like this before. I used to be a twig, with crooked teeth and flat hair.

I would've never even concidered wearing a snackback back then. I wasn't one to follow trends and such; I'd do what I liked to do and I'd wear what I liked to wear. But fame can change so much things.

Even if I did try to find love, this girl would get so much hate. One little flaw and that automatically means she's a slut. Oh how lovely some of our fans can be.

Just face it Niall, you're never gonna find love not matter how hard you try.

You know, I should listen to myself more often... or maybe not. If I want love, then I'll get love. I'm not one to give up, and this is definetely something I shouldn't give up on. I know I'm not meant to find love, many psychics have told me so. Though I never believed them, I'm starting to think otherwise.

I walk back to my room and start preparing to go to bed, but just before I set my head down, a light outside catches my attention. It's a fucking shooting star...might as well. Close your eyes and make a wish, Niall.

I wish I could fall in love.

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A/N

Sorry if you read this before I edited it. It's edited now, so congrats guys. A year later and I've finally decided to edit. More the come :)

Until next time!

- Ava Adilene

**** the rest of the book was not deleted, it was unpublished. Im currently editing it so once Im done, it should be back. just keep it in you library's for now if you want to read it :)