Perfect with You

Chapter 40 - Forgo and Foregone

Her mind tripped over itself, added another layer of drowsiness and through her closed eyelids, she saw the world spinning. She was certain there were no sounds nor voices, but an echoing clangor kept disturbing her ears and it made her dizzy. Just then she became partly conscious again, the comforting feeling of shutting down escaped her and when she felt that grisly grasp on reality, she became wide awake. She was still standing up on her two feet with her childhood friend and the young man she never did call her friend, and so she wondered how in the world she had enough time to nearly fall asleep without being interrupted. She briefly recalled what her mind had spelled inside of her failing mind, and how the situation she was in was so idiotically unreal. She almost gagged at how edgy she had been behaving. Like a teenage rebellion who had just put on her first spiked bracelet and started sucking in smoke through an E-cigarette because the smoke from an actual cigarette would scratch the throat. Wouldn't it be nice, though? To be so angst-filled that when you really think about it, the problems that manifested your mind, was created and enhanced by yourself because you want something to feel bad about? Wanting to feel special so much that you'd be willing to run a razor blade over the surface of the skin on your bracelet-wearing arm.
But then again, perhaps that is the kind of person she had become, only to a more extreme degree. An addict to pain and sorrow.

Her eyes still felt closed, but she saw her foot on the carpet next to a crumpled can.

Wasn't I wearing shoes?

Her black socks were definitely still on both her feet, but without shoes.

Hang on. Didn't I destroy Chloe's PC? Didn't I throw it on the ground in anger? Why is it here?

She became aware of how stupid and insane she sounded in her own head, with her short sentences and clueless thought process, but in this moment, she actually wondered whether or not she was still in the original timeline.
She suddenly felt a finger touch her lightly on the side of her arm, but it was quickly retracted when she reacted to the touch and she looked up without deciding to do so. What she saw, was the face of Chloe who looked weirdly shocked, and somehow it sparked something inside Max. Seeing her friend expressing the emotion of surprise startled Max and she felt herself suddenly jerking her body backward with half-closed eyes.

"What?" Max exclaimed with a thin breath while curling her fingers rapidly to get her blood flowing without deciding to do so.

"I think you zoned" Chloe kept her hands out as if she was preparing to catch her, but still kept her distance. Ted was standing a good few steps behind her, making absolutely no sound but observing closely.

"Mmm," Max groaned while closing her eyes again and taking an unstable step back while placing a hand on her stomach. She must've had somehow stepped on the crumbled can next to her, but she saw no blood and felt no pain so she became uncertain.

"I don't think she's alright" The quiet boy suddenly spoke up with a concerned voice from behind, sending a questioning eye towards Chloe. However, Chloe felt unable to make any sort of assessment on how to proceed as it still looked as if Max was about to pass out.

There was a definite cause for concern when Max hunched forwards with a small stumble and if she had it in her to speak, she would explain how she needed to throw up, but she was disorientated and her stomach felt so painfully empty. She clutched her the side of her stomach and some made nauseating sounds just before she lowered her chin and her body's involuntary reaction forced her to open her mouth wide, as for a moment she felt as if she was being strangled and couldn't breathe. Then it rushed from her stomach, up to her chest, burning her throat and escaped her mouth. A thin, white, and milky mass dropped out of her mouth, barely even projected, and spread onto the floor. It was a small amount of puke, and there were clear signs in the white color that she was undernourished and the sounds she made sounded eminently unpleasant and painful.