imessage | j.w.d

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the next day tyler and josh went out to fix tylers ukulele (he had so many!) as mariyah hit him with it as a joke (she didnt hit him she gestured to and it broke). yep savage. they said they would pick up Taco Bell to.

I was setting the table and then noticed I hadn't brushed my hair. I sighed and went up to the bathroom. it was open? weird, I thought mariyah had gone in. I opened it and then screamed at what I just saw.

"I just walked in and..." I cried harder. mariyah was laying on the ground. dead. yep. dead. wearing all black, black eye make up... it was so scary. there was an ambulance on its way and police here. i didn't know if she was killed or if it was suicide. but I didn't know what to think or do. my best friend is dead. I've been friends with her since year 9. we've stuck with each other. helped each other. never argued. she's my sister. my baby sister. and I've lost her. the whole world came crashing down onto me and I sobbed uncontrollably. I noticed josh walk in, tyler behind him.

"what's going on?" josh asks confused. he noticed me crying and ran over.
"what's wrong!?" he exclaims.
"she..." I sobbed and pointed.

tyler dropped everything. he was standing beside her body. he fell on his knees. his eyes empty. "babe?" his voice cracked. tears seeped out of his eyes.
"no" he started crying heavily..
"th-this cant be"
"ty" josh tried to calm his best friend. nothing worked.
"FUCK!" tyler pulled his hair. I'd never heard him swear before. he was broken down. I started to cry again.

"please calm down" I whisper to him.
he looked at me and sunk to the floor.
"I'm sorry" he started sobbing.
this was it.
my best friends gone.

we all went to the hospital after the ambulance came and took her. they tried to save her. they couldn't. she was gone. I knew mariyah had issues of her own that she prefer not to talk about but I never knew it was this bad. the doctors confirmed it was suicide. she killed herself. this broke tyler even more. josh looked like he was going to cry to. a lot. but he wanted to stay strong. I was silent. I didn't know what to say. this news had crushed me.

the next day
tyler hasn't spoken. josh was trying to lighten the mood. I was just sobbing the whole day. josh was sitting with me right now, but I told him I wanted to try and talk with tyler. he kissed me as I went up to tylers room. I knocked and walked in. he was sitting on his bed hugging his knees and sobbing.
"hello" I say quietly. he nodded at me.
"I think I should tell you about what you don't know about mariyah yet. she told me to tell you anyway" I say.

she had. I wasn't lying. he patted the space beside him. I sat beside him and put an arm around him and started to explain everything to the crying boy.

"she's always been bullied. she used to harm herself and stuff. she's also really insecure. she can't sleep at night ever. and when she does, she's praying to never wake up. no ones ever loved her and made her happy like you have tyler. but she probably felt she didn't know enough love to you. she blames herself for everything. don't be angry or sad. she still loves you. whatever happens, me and josh are here for you. youre the only person whos ever made hee truly happy. and what she did isnt your fault"
"t-thank you" he croaks. I kiss his cheek and headed back to josh.

rip me oops