"Thank you" I mumble, the hot air is keeping my feet warm, the slight noise of radio making this whole journey not so awkward. I have no idea where Harry is, he hasn't yet contacted me in the last half hour. I didn't even expect Zayn to turn up to my room, let alone help me sneak out.
"He means something to you doesn't he?" I haven't told Zayn most things, he doesn't need to know the details between me and Harry, im just thankful he's helping me.
I slowly nod. "You mean something to him too." He switches up the heat, stopping me from shivering. "You know id say If he told me anything, he just left." I believe him.
"He hasn't got any family near by has he, other than his mother's house." Im tempted to head to his mothers, but I don't want to worry her.
He shrugs his shoulders. "He doesn't talk much about his family, well he doesn't talk about a lot of things." I cant help but laugh along with him, he's right Harry isn't much of a talker at all. I click on Harrys ID, pressing the green button.
As usual I wait for it to ring, that ringing noise becoming too common. His voice mail sends shivers down my spine, waiting for him to actually pick up and talk back to me.
I wait again for the beep. "Harry, its me." I sigh, "Please call back." I cut the line, placing my phone back into my bag.
"Just give him some time." He rubs my hand slowly, give him some time? More time? Its been a week, its took him a week to get back in touch with me, to finally text to say he isn't dead. He doesn't realise I actually do care for him, Harry has no idea he's constantly trying to push me away, yet im constantly running to him.
"Will Alice or Bea know where he is?" I question, he shrugs his shoulders.
"Alice's mother lives an hour away from here." Its not just hit 9.43pm. My eyes are heavy, the sleepless nights are taking its toll.
"Would he be there though?" He shrugs his shoulder again. No one is giving me answers, no one seems to care that Harry is missing.
"I don't think Harry and his auntie get on." He laughs, its completely usless. Its as if im searching for someone who doesn't exist. "Our friend, Louis." He scratches his neck. "He lives in Ellensburg, its a good 3 hours away." I groan, three hours away. I cant possibly keep my eyes open for a further three hours.
"Look, 3 miles away there is an motel we'll crash there and head out early tomorrow." He smiles, I slowly nod. It doesn't sound too bad, I could do with a half decent nights sleep.
Zayn and offered to buy two separate rooms, but the cost was far from what I thought it would be. I told him id take the pull out bed and he could have the main. We ended up sleeping top and tall in the double bed. He got us both some breakfast while on our way to Ellensburg, the pancakes weren't the best, my stomach hasn't stopped turning and my anxiety is sky high.
"Were not far away now." He croaks, I check the time on the sat nav. Approximately an hour and 25 minutes away from possibly seeing Harry. "Do you need anything, a drink or?" I slowly nod, my mouth is dry and I need some air.
We turn off the motorway pulling in to the services. Its just turned 8.28am and im already a nervous wreck. I follow him into the building, heading straight to the ladies toilet. I shut myself in the cubical and sit down on the toilet sit, my tears falling free and my breathing becoming irregular. I bring the toilet roll to my eyes, rolling my head back and letting the tears escape my eyes.
"E-xcuse me?" There is a soft knock on the toilet door.
"Y-eah" I quickly wipe away the tear's, opening the door and examining the tall brunette stood in front of me. Her dull eyes droop and her smile becoming a frown.
"Im Eleanor." She smiles, following me over to the sink. I look up, my eyes have become slightly puffy, the blemishes on my pale skin becoming obvious and the discolour of my hair is revolting. "Are you sure you're okay?" She questions.
"Im Carly" I look back at her smiling, "You haven't got any concealer have you?" Ive never been one to care about my appearance, but knowing I could be seeing Harry makes me want to look my best.
She nods, "Yes, may I ask why you were crying?" This girl never quits, handing me her small make up bag. I turn to face her, trying my best to smile.
"Im visiting someone, just a bit nervous." I smile, applying the concealer to my spots. Majority of my face is now covered in small dots, I look like a complete idiot. I rub in the small dots, until my skin is clear all over.
"Im sure everything will go smoothly." She smiles, I hand her the make up bag back. Walking out and searching for Zayn. "Well it was lovely to meet you." She smiles.
"Yeah," I flicker my gaze through the people, searching for Zayn. I turn around to face Eleanor, to see her walking off with two young men. Her hand firmly gripped in the guys hand, the other guy stood directly next to him. His dark curls remind me of Harry, the way his shoulders slightly slump, the click of his heels drowning out my thoughts about him.
"There you are" I flinch at his touch against my arm. I turn back around searching for Eleanor, the crowds of people dieing down and the sight of her disappearing. "You ready?" He passes me a can of coke and a packet of crisps. I smile at the small gesture and follow him out into the rain.
We pull up outside a small house, Zayn switching off the engine. "Wait here." I watch him step out the car and head up to the front door. I turn to face them a young woman coming to the front door, I cant quite make out her features but she looks familiar. I step out the car, making my way up to meet them both. What seems to me is the two are having a few heated words, I think the past is slowly coming back to haunt them.
"Hello" I step from behind Zayn, the woman stood in front of us both isn't so young, her long brunette hair, her dark blue eyes stare back at me in confusion.
"This is Louis's mother." Zayn points out, im yet to find out what this Louis looks like. I smile back at her.
"You shouldn't be here" She mumbles, "You knew not to come here." She warns him off, a gasp falls from her lips as a truck pulls up behind Zayns car.
I watch closely as three figures step out the car, my eyes widening as Zayn tugs at my shirt. Im frozen, completely frozen, my legs have gone week and my whole body feels numb.
"Ca-rly" Zayn tugs at my arm yet I cant keep my gaze off the figure approaching us.
"Carly!" Her voice rings through my ear's, "Why are you here?" She questions. I keep my gaze on the two boys who slowly approach us.
"I-I" His curls are hidden behind a beanie, his hood is up and his eyes are fixed on his phone, along side of him is who I assume is Louis. I don't take much of his appearance in, but a quick glance of his blue eyes draw me even further to him.
"Louis, please show my brother to his room." She smiles, Louis nods tugging along the boy. I move to step in front of him, I need to see his face. "He's shy, I wouldn't do that." She pulls at my arm.
"Carly, he isn't here." Zayn whispers in my ear. I turn around, following the boy as he enters the house, watching him stare back at me.
It isn't him is it?
hello, finally I have finished it off. If I get 60 votes and 60 comments I shall update sooner than I intend to (meaning tomorrow!) hope you are all well, what are you guys up to?! x
