Let Me Go

Chapter 5

I covered my face with my hands and started bawling. I had tears running down my face and I heard Austin cuss more into his steering wheel.

 "I...I was scared to tell you. You're going off and I'll--I'll be here by myself. No one will understand. It will just be me and the baby without its dad." I said before crying harder.

"Damn it, Paige. Get out of my car." He said before I listened and got out. 

I ran inside without looking back. I didn't think I'd get a good reaction or feedback but no way did I expect him to blow up like that. I wish I could take everything back, and keep it to myself. We don't need him. Or at least I don't. But my baby deserves his or her dad... I just wish Austin understood.

I slid down against the wall by the door and continued to cry. 

"Honey," my mom said, coming into the room. She crouched down. 

"What's wrong? Is it Austin?" She asked, pulling me up for a hug. I nodded my head and kept crying. I covered my face with my hands again because I could just picture how my mascara could look right now.

"Honey, I'm sure everything will be the same. You guys just won't see each other as much." Mom replied rubbing my back soothingly. 

She had no clue. No clue on how much my life was, and is going to change.

 "No mom, he... He called it off." I cried. 

"Oh honey, it's okay. Maybe he's scared of how things will be like you are. I'm sure tomorrow..." She began to say. I pulled away. 

"No, mom... He's serious. And you haven't even heard the worst part." I replied.

"Honey, you know you can talk to me right?" She asked. I nodded.

 "Mom, I screwed up everything." I cried out. 

"Honey, I'm sure it's not that bad." Mom replied.

 "Mom, I'm pregnant. And Austin hates me! He made me get out of the car without even looking at me, hardly saying anything to me on what he thought." I said.

I burst out in even more tears.

 "Oh my God." My mom said, covering her mouth. 

"Don't tell Dad please, please don't tell Dad." I wined. My mom just pulled me in for a tighter hug and rubbed my back. This was her life repeating basically.

Mom told me she wouldn't tell my dad... But she said eventually we'd have to. I had went upstairs to lay on my bed and mom made me a cup of hot tea. She had brought it to me, and cuddle with me, not saying anything. After a few minutes we both heard the doorbell ring.

"I'll go get that, honey." My mom said before getting up and leaving. 

I nodded with my head hanging down. I felt ashamed. My mom was never more disappointed of me than now. She had always told me to wait until I was married so history would not repeat itself. My mom had my older brother when she was my age and my dad was not around much until after I was born.

A few seconds later I heard the front door open and then a few seconds later my mom appeared in my door way. 

"Paige, you have a visitor." She said moving aside. In her place stood a very emotionless Austin. 

I couldn't read his face. He looked sad, mad, disappointed. I didn't blame him, I probably felt everything he did, if not more. 

"If you need me Paige, you let me know." My mom said before going downstairs.

Austin stood there in my doorway. "Can, I um. Can, I come in?" He asked nervously. 

It felt like we had never even talked before. I felt like a twelve year old who had never had an actual conversation with a boy. Like a girl who had never had a guy in her room before. Everything with Austin felt new. And not in a good way.