Let Me Go

Chapter 8

Austin had been gone for two days and I felt terribly alone. I had tried to be around my mom to keep me company but eventually she had to go to work. I had made my first appointment for this Saturday morning around 11 so that Austin could come back and come with me. I was scared, nervous, and kinda happy at the same time.

I was scared because it was something I had never done before. Usually I had only went to the doctor to have sickness check-ups, not baby check-ups. I was happy because I thought it would bring Austin and I closer. Him and I would eventually see the little miracle we made together. Then we would have the perfect little family.

Just as I was thinking about all of this, my phone went off. I jumped to answer it but did not want to seem desperate and answer it right away. I waited 5 more seconds before I picked up. "I miss you, baby." Was the first thing I heard. It was Austin. I was so happy to hear his voice after just those two days of texting.

"I miss you too. Guess what?" I asked. I knew he couldn't see but I had the biggest smile on my face. 

"What? You're going to make me come back and stay with you? Please, that'd make my day." He replied.

 I giggled.  "Austin, I miss you, don't get me wrong. But it's been two days." I said. 

"I know. But I miss your face, I miss your lips, I miss the way my buddy feels in..." He began to say until I stopped him.

"Okay! I made an appointment." I spit out laughing.

 "Awe you did babe? Please tell me I can come." Austin said. 

"I did. It's this Saturday." I replied. 

"Okay, can I stay with you Friday night?" Austin asked. 

"Of course. How's school?" I asked.

"Boring and my roommate is always bringing annoying blondes over. He left tonight though to go to one of their dorms though." Austin replied. 

My heart sank in my chest. "Blondes?" I asked, worried. 

"Paige, you have nothing to worry about." He said, reading my mind like he always did. "He'll bring a girl over one day and then another one the next day and so on. It gets annoying." He added.

I felt better knowing Austin didn't like it nor did he like the girls as of what it sounded like.

 "I bet it is annoying." I replied before a sigh. "You okay, baby?" Austin asked. "Yeah, I'm just nervous for Saturday." I said, feeling good to get it off my chest. 

"I am too, baby. I'll see our child and...I think this baby will keep us close even though I'll be away." He admitted.

"Me too." I said with a smile. 

"Just to let you know, I gave that calendar back to Lucas." Austin replied, making me smile bigger. 

"Good, because that's the only thing he'll ever get if he don't change his attitude on everything." I replied. I had no idea what I was talking about then, obviously.

6 months later...

After the false pregnancy, Austin and I thought it would be better to go our separate ways. He was gone away at college still and where was I? Back here in our home town, alone and wishing for another chance at a new beginning. I had started going to church more and surprisingly, hanging out with Austin's former best friend, Lucas. Lucas made me laugh and took my mind off things. No romantic feelings though, I promise.

It was one cold, December night and Lucas and I sat in his car, getting ready to pull out of my parents' drive way. 

"I wonder how he is." I said as Lucas and I were talking about Austin.

 "He really misses you. That's all I can say, Paigeypoo." Luke replied, bringing back the old nickname.

"Stop it." I said before giggling and shoving his arm playfully.

 "You know, he left a lot behind back here. If it would of been me in his situation, I would have stayed. Not only did he leave behind his best friend, but he lost you..." Luke said, moving his hand to rest on my thigh. I bit my lip. This was the closest Lucas had ever been to me before.

I felt his hand move inward to rest between my thighs and I grabbed his hand and pushed it hard to stay there. Right there he just touched me and it felt so good. Even with our clothes on, I realized how sexy he was right then as he began rubbing me. Of course, I took my coat off since his car was warm and I covered my lap so he could then freely touch me. He touched me better then Austin did with his hands even.

I realized then that when he went inside my pants, I would be his now. He would be my addiction. He would be my new love since Austin gave me up. Now I was Lucas' and Lucas was mine. We just kept it on the down low from Austin. Even if it had been only 3 months that Austin and I have been broken up, it felt good to find a new man.

He then drove me over to his place after he got me warmed up in his car. He had his own apartment and we went there and snuggled the rest of the night. We fed each other popcorn, play-wrestled on his bed and kissed some more. He was the good in my life and I prayed that it kept coming from him. My prayers had been answered.