That summer

Chapter 20: we're screwed

The two just stayed in the same spots. Nina gradually looked up at the now father-to-be Fabian as if in a slow-motion time span.

"Fabian", Nina asked quietly but yet audible, "What do we do now?"

At this point Fabian was all but sure of anything really. He didn't look down to her. "Fabian?" , Nina asked again louder and with more force in her tone of voice. He seemed to hesitate for a moment as if he would say something that would not please her, then he looked down to her. Nina was slightly confused to why it had taken this long for him to respond to a very simple question. "What are we going to do now'" ', she reiterated.

"I-I don't know. I'm sorry Nina." Fabian said disappointingly. Nina felt empty and emotional. She looked down. Fabian lifted her head up. Look Nina, although I know most of the time I know everything, but now I won't know anything. We'll get through this together. Foraltite" He smiled cheekily.

Nina nudged him. "Awe you know I love it when you speak Dutch" she said.

"Forever?" He reiterated in English.

"Forever" Nina replied.

He wrapped her in a nice, beautiful, warm, loving hug. The kind of hug that seems to last an eternity. The kind that makes you want to do nothing but hug that person all day, every day, foraltite supposedly.

"Would you want me too set up an appointment for you?" Fabian asked nervously and through the hug.

"Sure" Nina replied quietly. Fabian abandoned the hug which left Nina feeling slightly alone and forgotten.

Fabian grabbed her hand lightly and looked into her eyes and smiled warmly. He stood up and grabbed his laptop. Nina leaned her head on his shoulder as Fabian scheduled her appointment with her doctor for the next day. After confirming, he leaned his head to his side so that their heads were touching. After a few minutes Nina turned her head and kissed his cheek. He looked at her and kissed her full on the lips. Nina smiled and cupped her hand around his pale looking face.

"Your too good to me" Nina said.

"There's always room for more goodness to you. Just yell and I'll be there" Fabian said smiling.

Nina giggled to herself and ran her nimble fingers through his thick raven hair.

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The next day at the doctors office waiting room.

Fabian causally slid his hand on hers. He intertwined his fingers with hers. Although his grasp was light but seemed hard and tight he felt her fingers trembling. Slightly worried Fabian wrapped his free arm around her.

" Nina it's okay, calm down love" he said.

Nina's hand ceased shaking. His voice seemed to soothe her. She didn't look at him but instead she rested her head on his

shoulder. Fabian stroked her hair.

"miss. Martin" an assistant called.

Fabian and Nina both stood up , she was leading the way.

Inside the room the doctor made her lay on a table and lift her shirt over her stomach. Fabian held onto her shoulder for comfort. Nina looked up at him and smiled. The doctor asked them loads of questions. Nina and Fabian answered them nearly in sync. Then the doctor spread blue-colored gel on her stomach. Nina flinched because of the overwhelming cold sensation that struck her almost by surprise. Fabian stroked the sides of her face to calm her down and to warm her up. Then the doctor took some kind of wand thing and scanned it over her stomach.

"Look there it is" he said pointing at the monitor next to him.

Nina smiled and shed some tears. There in the center of the screen was her little person. Not even starting to have arms of legs yet. Just kind of a plump. Fabian smiled also. He appeared to be Lost at the screen. He also shed some tears which fell on Nina's face. She wiped then away and said nothing because she didn't want to ruin the moment. A few seconds later the doctor wiped the gel and went to observe his notes and give a report. Nina put her shirt down and bent over and hugged Fabian.

"It's so small" Nina said.

Fabian didn't reply but yet for the first time shed tears. Nina wiped them away.

"It's so beautiful" he said.

"Awe Fabian" Nina said.

"I can't believe what I was looking at." He said wiping his own eyes.

Nina pampered his face with kisses.

"Me either" Nina replied.

Fabian kissed Nina once and the door swung open. It was the doctor.

"I have some..bad news" he said.

Nina's face turned from overjoyed to distressed.

"What's wrong doctor. Lin?" She asked.

"Your child is very sensitive. If exposed to too much movement or I you become extremely emotional you can kill it " Dr.Lin said.

"No" Nina said quietly.

"I'd recommend bedrest for most of the time. No traveling whatsoever. It can be short trips but no hour or so trips. And especially no flying. That's a big no. Just keep your cool and you should be fine. Goodbye" he said and left.

"Fabian.." Nina said after awhile.

"Yeah?" He asked in disbelief.

"We're screwed." Nina replied.