OCD

School

Naomi's POV

I told my mom about it when I was 10, she said that it might be just something that was happening to me because of stress, I knew it wasn't like that because I had several time with it, I told her that and she told that if I felt like that again to just tell her and that she'll do a psychologist appointment for me.

Cara and Lea found out since the moment it started, Cara has been there when Lea feels bad and she knows the signs, they had a talk with me about how I should trust them and all of that stuff, but honestly it really didn't change my mind, look at me now.

After my mom saw it really was serious she took me to the psychologist and she said that I needed a psychiatrist, and I went to one and he gave me a prescription, but I don't go to therapies anymore, I just get the prescription, it has helped with some of the anxiety but it doesn't take the thought away. I don't think any medication actually takes them away I just need therapy to help me cope.

Anyways, I am getting ready for school, that simple word can change it all. School is one of the worst places for me to be in, it's were most of my thoughts form because of all the materials that surround me; also, I have social anxiety so when the bell rings and everyone comes out of the classroom I always have to wait or go before everyone.

I always struggle to choose something to wear, so sometimes I just tell Lea or Cara and they'll choose the best, I get dressed after Cara picks something for me and brush my hair to be ready, I'm not going to be out until another hour, I still have to do my ''rituals'' as Cara calls them, and have breakfast. I go down the stairs touching every three spaces in the staircase, leave one, and repeat, as I do everyday; I get down and hug my mom and tap her in the shoulder three times on each side. I open the chair to sit three times and then I sit, then I put everything in order to start eating. I have a French toast with organic fruits (my mom likes cooking), I serve myself some natural orange juice in three parts, Jessa looks at me weirdly as she enters the dining room and sits down, I repeat the image 2 other times in my head to be fine with it. I was about to eat as a thought hit me.

''If you don't count to three, you'll go to hell''.

I counted to three and took three bites, I almost chocked, it made Jessa look even more weirdly at me, then she laughed hysterically. Lea entered with Jacob and saw what was happening and they started laughing. I swallowed everything and took three sips of juice.

''Sorry'' I said innocently.

''It's ok babygirl'' Lea said.

''Hurry up girls cause we're going to be late'' Jacob said.

''Aren't you going to eat anything Jake?'' I asked him.

''No I'm not hungry I just want to leave.'' he said annoyed.

''Chill Jacob she just worries for you'' Jessa said. We both finished, and I stood up three times, and placed my plate in the sink three times, I looked at Jacob and I could see I was getting on his nerves. He is the one that is the most bothered by my compulsions because he doesn't like to be late, but if I don't do all of this I will be anxious for the rest of the day.

I brushed my teeth and head out the door I closed the door three times and locked it three times, then checked three times if it was closed, I had the urge to check other three times, but my mom was shouting at me to get in the car. I ran into the car and shut the door three times. I earned a glare from Jacob.

''Where is Cara?'' I asked as I counted the people in the car, usually Chelsea (housekeeper) takes Jessa and Jacob; and mom takes Lea, Cara and I.

''Chelsea took her to the hospital earlier because we thought her stomach was hurting, but turns out it was the appendix'' mom said.

''Why didn't you tell us?, is she getting it removed?, is she going to be okay?'' Lea said worried about her.

''Honey don't worry she is fine, she is getting it removed, I didn't tell you because I thought you would get stressed, but I'll pick you and Naomi up earlier, so you'll just go to three periods. I have a meeting in 30 minutes and I have to go see Cara so I'll pick you up after that. Jake and Jessa, Chelsea is going to pick you guys up after I get to the hospital, because she will be out of surgery in two hours so I have to be with her, okay darlings?'' Mom said.

''Okay mom'' we all said in unison. We got to school and got out of the car.

''Bye mom, see you later'' I told mom.

''Bye sweetheart, have a nice day'' she told me.

I walked into school, as always being aware of the lines in the floor. I try to not be showing it too much because of course I don't want everyone to know.

I have two best friends, Paige and Alexis, I met them since we were in 5th grade, now we're in 9th and we are still best friends, they both know about my OCD, they found out when they had a sleepover in my house, and of course they noticed everything. What I don't like is that Lex always talks to me about it and sometimes blurts out some stuff she shouldn't in public, so because of her two boys in the classroom know. I was very pissed at her at first because those two boys told one of the teachers, and she said:

''Of course not, she doesn't even behave like it.'', and now they think I'm a liar.

''Hey Nomi, how are you?'' Paige said as I approached my locker.

''Fine, I guess'' I said.

''Why?'' Lex said rapidly

''Nothing specific, but Cara is getting her appendix removed and it's bothering me a bit'' I said.

''What?, Why?'' Lex asked.

''I don't know, I guess appendicitis?'' I said not sure about what was I saying.

''Well I'll go to first period, its history, let's go Paige'' I said trying not to be late to class, we entered and I set everything on my table, and prepared myself for being bored to death.