OCD

Going on

Naomi's POV

Even with the medicine I get up at night, I check the windows are closed, the door is open and the closet is closed, I get back in bed and I repeat until I'm satisfied.

I get nightmares all the time or flashbacks in the middle of school, and at night.

I just try to go on with life, everyday goes by very slowly I like to analyze the people I am close to but they don't even notice me.

There was this boy I was really close to, we would tell each other everything but when a new girl arrived at school he started hanging out with her and he doesn't even talk to me anymore. I feel like everyone does that, they just get tired of me or give up on me and leaves me alone, but I'm used to it so it doesn't really matter.

I'm like the freak at school, and everyone thinks I'm an attention seeker, if I really was an attention seeker then why do I hide things?, why do I self harm in secret? If I would want attention I wouldn't be doing this stuff, but they don't know so I let them think whatever they want to think.

I'm getting very bad grades and my mom got mad at me, but she knows it's hard for me to remember things or to pay attention, I think she wants to see me get good grades like the rest of the girls in my class, but I try really hard and the only thing I obtain is more stress. I feel like I am a disappointment to everyone and I deserve everything that has happened to me.

My demons are raging at me, I can't stand all of this anymore, a girl at school who used to be my friend is now bullying me. Sometimes I'm scared she is going to bruise me and my mom will find out.

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Lea's POV

Everything has been really calmed down, I love acting and I started doing some jobs but today I got a really important casting for a movie I want to make the lead role.

Naomi has been very off lately, she comes home and locks herself in the room and doesn't come out, I haven't seen her eat much. I just hope she is okay. She is going on a trip with her school and there's just a few days left, I hope she starts feeling better so she can enjoy it.

"Hello" I answer my phone which was ringing.

"Hi is this Lea Hastings?" the person on the phone said.

"Yes it is".

"We are calling so we can inform you that you passed the first audition, we are going to make a second one but you would have to fly out to L.A." I started freaking out.

"Yes, OMG thank you" I'm in shock.

"Naomi" I screamed looking for her.

I found her in the couch crying and listening music.

"Baby girl?" She looked broken.