Sleeping With The Enemy (EDITED VERSION) COMPLETED

chapter 14

two weeks went by and Derrick was still in jail. His lawyer Dylan been trying to get his charges dropped, but it wasn't easy due to them having his fingerprints at the scenes. It was driving me crazy I was missing him and between my miscarriage, and grandma death and her funeral coming up have been stressing me out. I've been putting off work when Derrick was home. I'm slowly getting back into the working habit again. Derrick been having Kyrie, Que, and Javoni looking out for me. I've been putting money on his books for him even though he didn't want me to. Shit was getting hard out here without him i've stopped by the trap every now and then and making sure money was looking right, I knew all the ends and out of the business; I told Derrick I'll learn everything, but I didn't want to be part of it unless it was really called for. Since Derrick been gone our conversations started becoming less and less. Me telling Derrick that we lost our child after it was confirmed, I had a miscarriage fucked him up. I think he's been distancing himself from me because of that. I didn't want him to go through it by himself, but that's what he wanted.
I sat at the breakfast bar letting my tears fall again. I haven't cried since I found out I lost my child. As I sat there I felt someone hug me from behind.
"It's okay" Kyrie said hugging me even tighter. Kyrie been here almost everyday making sure I was okay. I was beginning to start getting a soft spot for him. He was the only one that seemed to genuinely wanted to make sure I was good and with Derrick stop calling I was becoming lonely and it felt good to have someone around every now and then.
"Thanks, Kyrie for everything I appreciate it a lot" I said wiping my eyes.
"I'ma always be here for you, niecey wanted to come with me, but she said you've been real distant from her she assumed you didn't want her around," Kyrie said taking a seat next to me.
"I know, I just wanted to be alone for a while, but from the looks of it I won't ever get that" I said slightly smiling.
" You already know" Kyrie said laughing. I got up from my seat playfully slapped Kyrie in his arm.
"Are you going to stop crying and let me look out for you like your man wants?"Kyrie got up out of his seat and followed me into the kitchen. "I'm sure Derrick wouldn't approve of you coming as much" I replied leaning up against the counter eating cherries out of the bag of cherries I bought from Walmart.
"So you prepared for your grandma's funeral?" I sat the bag of cherries down and put my head down before replying "no I'm not"
"Your grandmas in a better place she doesn't have to suffer anymore" I listened as Kyrie walked over to me.
"Yeah that is true" I replied I instantly felt a connection between me and Kyrie, so walked away from him to the other side of the kitchen.
"Why you move?" Kyrie asked turning around to face me.
"Just you was a little too close for comfort" I replied looking away from him trying to not make eye contact to him. Then all of a sudden  I felt his hands grab my waist. I don't know why, but this connection between us been getting stronger then ever. As I stepped back Kyrie pulled me back into him
"You don't like being this close to me?" Kyrie asked and before I could respond he kissed me. Our tongues danced as we kissed each other passionately. I never been kissed the way Kyrie was kissing me. I pulled back because Derrick crossed my mind. I couldn't do that to him, I love that man to much, but I was also lonely ass fuck. I made a mental note to keep my distance from Kyrie because I didn't want him playing on the fact I was lonely and going through something and I didn't want to cheat on Derrick.
" My bad Carmen , I shouldn't never did that. Please forgive me! I just can't help how I feel about you, I mean these feelings just won't go away as bad I want them too, I'm going to keep my distance. If you need me just call me" Kyrie grabbed his keys and phone off the breakfast bar I grabbed Kyrie hand stopping him from walking out the kitchen. I looked him straight in the eyes.
"Look Carmen let me go I can't be here any longer" Kyrie pleaded.
"Don't go" I didn't know why I was trying to stop him, but it was my natural instinct to stop him.
Kyrie kissed my lips and pulled away from and headed out of my house. I was left standing in my kitchen confused I was still in shock on what just happened. I couldn't make sense of what took place, was I falling for someone else? Was I just lonely and needed affection? I honestly didn't know what I was feeling. I looked over at the clock on the stove it was going on 10:30 at night. I walked out the kitchen and went to the bathroom that is adjoined to my bedroom, and started the shower. As I began grabbing things for my shower, my phone began to ring. I walked out the bathroom and back into the bedroom. I walked over to the bed to see It was Derrick mom calling me.
"Hello!" I said sitting on the bed.
"Hey, Carmen How are you?" Sharon asked.
"I'm fine Sharon, trying to hang in there--you know" I said in a low soft tone.
"Baby, you can call me momma. Yes I know what you mean. Have you heard from Derrick?" Sharon asked.
"No ma'am I haven't" I ran my fingers through my soft curls as I bit my bottom lip.
"Have you been taking the depression medicine Dr. Shuford gave you like you're supposed to?"
"Yes ma'am I have" I said reassuring Sharon I've been taking my medicine like the doctor said. After the visit at the hospital I became depressed and Sharon got me some depression medicine from her old doctor. Sharon went through a depression phase when Derricks dad died.
"Aw okay, I was just calling to see how you was, and if you heard from Derrick. You take care now I'll call you in a few days to check up on you.." Sharon said before disconnecting our call. I shook my head and got up and headed into my bathroom. I quickly undressed and got in the shower. My mind was all over the place. I was expecting to have a relaxing shower. It just seem like that wasn't going to happen any time soon because I had to much on my mind. I quickly finished my shower and got out. I dried off and put my clothes on and went and laid in my bed. I was exhausted and getting some rest was definitely needed. After about 5 minutes laying in my bed I couldn't even go to sleep. I kept thinking about Kyrie and him kissing me, which it was weird for me to even be thinking of him. I tried to brush it off and close my eyes, but that wasn't working. Why is this man invading my life like this? I sat up in my bed and grabbed my depression medicine off the nightstand and grabbed my water bottle and took my pill. I put the cap back on my water and medicine bottle and sat them back on the nightstand I then picked up my phone on the night stand and decided to text Shaniece.
" Hey neicey! I'm sorry I've been so distant lately, I just got a lot going on right now."
I sent off the text hoping she would reply. Not even two minutes later she texted me back.
"Hey boo, it's okay I completely understand...why you up? Something wrong?!"
It made me feel good, that my Best Friend wasn't mad at me. Quickly replied back to her.
"I honestly can't sleep....I haven't spoken to Derrick in a while....our relationship is becoming to end....well it feels like it. & your cousin is invading my mind....I can't sleep cause he's always on my thoughts I don't know what to do"
I sent off my text, and went to go to the kitchen to find something to snack on. I went through all my cabinets, and couldn't find nothing worth eating at the moment. Since I couldn't find nothing to eat I went back to my room. I picked my phone up off my bed and seen Shaniece had texted me. I sat on the bed and opened up her text.
" girl! You like my cousin and he likes you, which is sooooo obvious. Maybe you need to test the waters with someone else. Yeah I know that's Derricks homie and all, but if you constantly thinking of him then you need to find out why....look I'm not at home and Kyrie is there, so go by my place I won't be home until tomorrow night. I'm hanging with my new boo thang....and yes, I will give you up dates on that tomorrow. Goodnight Bestfriend I love you."
After I read her text, I threw my phone on my bed and went to the closet. I pulled out my black leggings, i got from pink in the mall with my black, silver sweater that went with my leggings. I undressed and put my clothes on. I grabbed my socks out my sock basket in the closet and put them on. I reached on to the top shelf and grabbed my gray uggs off the shelf and put them on. I threw my hair into a high messy bun. I walked out the closet, and grabbed my phone, and charge then grabbed my purse off the dresser grabbing my keys out of them while walking out my room. I shut off all the lights and locked up my place I went and got in my car and started up the car. I sat there contemplating if I should take Shaniece advice and go to her place to see Kyrie. My heart was pulling me and different ways. I didn't want to risk my relationship, but I needed to figure out what I was feeling for Kyrie was real or not. I decided I was going to find out and  headed for my Bestfriend house. While I drove over there I let Jacquees New Wave play throughout the car.