Always💜 (S.M)

14

After we arrived at shawns cabin I had given him Tylenol for his future hangover and crawled right into bed after changing into sweatpants. I fell asleep in under 10 minutes. I was never really much of a night owl.

For some reason I woke up at 4 in the morning with tears in my eyes. At first I thought I was possessed until the pain in my heart kicked in.

I sobbed.

I couldn't stop sobbing.

I felt depressed again.

I want to hurt myself. I don't want to be here.

I stand up and walk to the bathroom but stop in the hallway. I collapse next the the bathroom door and lean my head against the wall and sob. I cry and cry and cry and my mind is so crazy at the moment I'm not even 100% sure why I'm crying. All I know is that I'm alone in the dark on a cold floor and I can't control myself.

It's because I have to go back to reality.

Back to where I have no true bestfriend.

Back to all the annoying eyes looking me up and down in the hallway.

Back to being the weird depressed, abused girl. I continue to cry until hear footsteps,

Shawns POV

I woke up to an unfamiliar noise and a pounding headache. The last thing I remember was the party after the dance and dancing with Bella.. bella.

She not next to me and now I can recognize the unfamiliar noise. Sobbing.
Pure pain radiates from the hall.

I run.
My immediate reaction is to pick her up in my lap and silence her pain, or at least try to.

Bella's POV

I was sitting in Shawns lap as he now leaned against the wall. How did he always know when I needed comforting. It seemed like he had superpowers.

He rocked me. Every now and then placing a kiss on my head and wiping a tear. I clenched a ball of his red sweatshirt while burying my face into it.

"I don't know how I'll make it." I said muffled through the tears.

"Shhhhh. You'll be okay Bella."

But I didn't think I would be. This right here was what made me okay and I wouldn't have this whenever I needed it.

"You know how I said I sang a little bit."

I nod.

"Well would you like to hear some?"

I look at him now and smile very smally. I nod once more. He carries me to the cushioned chair not wanting to leave me on the floor. He grabbed his guitar and strummed lightly before actually beginning the song.

**LISTEN TO 'A LITTLE TOO MUCH' BY SHAWN MENDES**

"She would not show that she was afraid....
But being and feeling alone was too much to face...."

He continued to the chorus

"Sometimes it all gets a little too much
...but you gotta realize
That soon the fog will clear up. And you don't have to be afraid because we're all the same... and we know that... sometimes it all gets a little too much.."

It was unbelievable. It was angelic. I'm not over exaggerating when I say that If I didn't know where the voice was coming from, I might have thought it was God himself speaking down to me.

"Shawn..I..."

He just put his guitar down and hugged
me.

"I wrote that one a while ago when you first told me your story."