Let Me Love You (Shizaya fanfic)

Chapter 4: Izaya's older sister | Dark descent

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Shizuo's pov:

I growled as she called me the nickname the stupid flea gave me. She smirked at me with the same smirk the flea would wear, and she glared at me through those maroon eyes that seemed to look crimson. 'She really is the flea's sister.', I thought.

"How the hell do you know me?", I growl, glaring back at her.

"Why, Shizu-chan, I do not intend to call you the insanely ridiculous yet funny nickname, but I am angry you almost beat my brother to death," she seethed through her smirk. "I know you because Iza-otouto* keeps telling me about you, ne~."

"The flea talks about me?", I said in a confused tone. 'Why would he talk about me?', I wonder.

"Why yes. Did you know you were his favorite person, Shizu-chan~?", she says.

"Tch. Favorite person. More like favorite plaything!", I yell.

[G-guys! Please don't fight! Especially here!], Celty typed.

"Oh, I would never dream of ruining your and Shinra's place, Celty. Though I wonder about Shizu-chan. . .," Hana teased, getting on my nerves.

Izaya's pov:

I felt numb, yet everything hurt. I wanted to die. I can't live on everyday of my life knowing that my beloved Shizu-chan hates me. It's constantly eating away at me. The voices. With every passing day we fight in the streets of Ikebukuro, they grow louder. As well as the voice that sounds so much like Shizu-chan.

I haven't called Hana in months. I bet she was glad I stopped talking with her on the phone every once a week, once a month forcing her to come visit me in Shinjuku. I knew she didn't care. No one did. I had no one. I had no friends. I was alone. Mother and father didn't care, Hana didn't care, Mairu and Kururi didn't care, Shinra didn't care, Celty didn't care, Namie didn't care –of course she doesn't, she hates my guts–, and I know very well Shizu-chan didn't care. So why living when you know no one cares.

I had let Shizu-chan catch me and hit me. It hurt. It hurt so bad. I got tired of waiting, I got tired of being scared, I got tired of playing our game. Humans seemed so boring nowadays. I could predict what they would do. It bored me. The only thing that kept me living was my precious fatty tuna and, of course, my little game of cat and mouse with Shizu-chan.

I've been depressed, cutting my wrists and doing self-damage to myself. Neither Hana nor Shinra knew. Doubt that they would even care. Hana has always talked about not bottling up your feelings, saying that it's not healthy for you. But I was a god! I couldn't show emotions! Emotions were for humans! It made them weak! I am a god! I was higher than those humans! But was I still a god when I fell in love with a monster?

You're not a god. You're a monster.

No! The voices were back!

Go to hell, Izaya!

No one cares if you'd die!

Not Hana, the twins, Shinra, Celty, Namie, Mikado, Anri, Masaomi, Kadota, his gang, or even Shizuo!

Shut up! Go away!

Izaya, stop calling me already! It's annoying and I don't want to visit you every month!

H-Hana?

We don't care about you, Izaya!

Mairu?

Die. . .

Ku-Kururi?

Izaya, just die already! I don't want to clean your wounds every time you get hurt after a fight with Shizuo-kun!

Sh. . . .Shinra? It's so cold. . .

Izaya, I've had enough of you. The only reason I put up with you is because I need the job!

Celty. . .?

Bastard, just die already so I can take your money!

Izaya, I only pretended to be friends with you because you looked desperate. But you just annoy me.

Namie? D-Dota-chin?

Stupid flea! How could you be that stupid to fall for me! Rot in hell, bastard!

Sh-Shizu-chan. No! Wait! Don't go! P-please. . . .It-it hurts. . . .

Celty's pov:

I stare at the two insanely strong people in the living room, glaring menacingly at each other –which Hana had an evil grin on her face like Izaya. From what Hana told me, Shizuo seemed to beat Izaya almost to death. I admit I was disappointed at my blonde friend because even if Izaya was an ass, he still didn't deserve death.

[Shizuo, why the hell did you beat Izaya almost to death?!], I typed, showing it to him.

"The flea deserved what he got, alright?!", Shizuo exclaims.

"And what did Izaya do to deserve that, ne, Shizuo?!", Hana yells.

"He annoys me! Plus, he deserves it for messing with people's life!", Shizuo says.

"Iza-chan's a very lonely person!", Hana states.

"Yeah? That doesn't give him the right to meddle with my life!", Shizuo yells.

"He only meddles with you is because he's in love with you!", Hana exclaims then covers her mouth when she realized what she just said.

*Otouto means 'younger brother'.