No Turning Back

Widening Horizons

It's starting become sad at how unemotional I'm becoming. Even I was laying there, half naked on top of Mia as she kissed me passionately, I couldn't feel a damn thing on the inside. I only felt her soft lips and warm tongue moving in sync with mine. I only felt her smooth porcelain skin under my hands but that didn't bring pleasure to me. Nothing she was doing was even arousing me in this moment. I felt so awkward as she put her all into this make out session while I kind of just...existed. Something wasn't right though. I wasn't sure what exactly but my stomach just didn't sit right as I kissed her. I didn't like this feeling but I knew that I had to put up with it. At least until I figured out what was causing it.

"Hey, are you ready – Oh God," I heard Melanie say as she bust into my room. I jumped off Mia a little bit too quickly and looked at me best friend. "I am so sorry," she said as she covered her eyes with her hands. Although I did feel a bit of relief at the fact that I didn't have to kiss Mia anymore, I did feel embarrassed. I had never been caught making out with a girl before. I could feel my face turning red as I really took in what was going on. My best friend had really just caught me kissing my girlfriend. Ugh, that's so awkward.

"Melanie, we talked about you starting to knock," I yelled as I quickly tugged my old tee shirt back on. I noticed Mia was doing the same, her face red as a tomato. Melanie giggled at me as she removed her hands from her eyes.

"I'm sorry," she said as she shot me a sheepish grin. Mia looked to Melanie and really looked at her this time. As she analyzed my best friend in her fitted red shirt that had zebra lips printed on it, slightly fitted but frilly zebra skirt that had a belt that hugged her small waist, and her high heels, I noticed a bit of suspicion cross through her blue eyes. Melanie's honey brown hair hung around her in graceful curls while her bright brown eyes were outlined in black and gray. She did look really pretty. Hopefully, Mia wasn't getting the wrong idea about her. Suddenly, my phone rang on my nightstand. I scrambled over my bed to answer my phone.

"Where the hell are you," I heard Jayden say before I could even say anything. I could hear faint music in the background. "I just got off of work and Beth is already here. Are you guys still coming?"

"Yea, we're just running a little late. I kind of lost track of time." I could imagine Jayden rolling his eyes in my mind through the short pause that followed after my statement.

"Whatever. Just get here soon." Then he hung up on me.

"Where are you going," Mia asked as her blue eyes stared at me curiously. She looked towards Melanie as she walked into my closet and starting moving my clothes around. Mia raised an eyebrow. "What is she doing?"

"She always does that," I said, waving off my friend's action.

"We're going to hang out with Jayden and Bethany," Melanie said from inside of my closet. "Gonna go widen our horizons."

"Yea, Jayden invited us to hang out with him and Bethany tonight so yea," I said as Mia looked to me in confusion.

"But I thought you and Jayden hated each other." She said.

"Well, we kind of came to work over our differences. After our fight, things kind of changed between us. I think I gained his respect since I stood up to him and stuff. We're trying to be cordial."

"What he means is," Melanie said as she poked her head out of my closet. "After their fight in school, they met up over the weekends and professed their undeniable love for each other, kissed, Jayden dicked Daniel down and now they're cool." I blushed deeply at her statement without thinking.

"That did not happen," I yelled loudly. Mia looked to me with surprise while Melanie just raised an eyebrow. I realized what I was doing and started to calm down. "We just...talked. That's all." God, the truth was sweet. Or at least much more realistic than the scenario Melanie had developed into her head. A part of me wondered about that girl sometimes. But why would she say something like that? She knew that I was straight and I'm pretty sure Jayden was straight too. Sure, she was just playing around but something about that scenario struck something in me. I was a bit afraid to find out what exactly though. I didn't think I wanted to know. Anyway, things were actually getting better between us since that day in the library last week. While Jayden still did pick at me and acted like he didn't like me, and trust me I had a fair share of keeping up with picking stupid arguments with him, I could feel an unspoken understanding between us. I could feel that we were making progress now that Jayden was starting to trust and respect me. There wasn't any tension or awkwardness between us anymore and I was beginning to find Jayden's presence a bit...relaxing at times. Around him, I didn't feel any pressure nor did I feel as if I was being judged in any way. Okay maybe a little but not in the way I usually was. I sort of felt as if I could really be myself around him and I had to admit that I was enjoying that feeling.