Stalking Guren

Day 1: 10:00pm Distractions

Time: 10:06pm
Location: Shinya's Bedroom

🐾Shinya's POV🐾

I have lost my first kiss to Guren. I didn't really mind that fact, I was just more surprised by how much I enjoyed it. I've always been interested in what Guren was doing, but I never expected it to turn out like this. Yet the fact that we kissed, wouldn't leave my head. I rolled over, trying to get the thought out of my head. I stared at the clock, the ceiling, the walls, really anywhere in my field of vision, to get him out of my head. Nothing seemed to work. We've known each other since we were children, but we've never been close friends. 

I remember always looking up to him because he seemed so free. He could do whatever he wanted, while I was trapped by the family I was adopted into. I was normal, just like all the others, but one day it all changed. The day the Hiragi's adopted me, is the day I lost everything. In the truest way, I was indeed nothing but their pet.

I sighed. I had successfully distracted myself from Guren, but now I felt like shit. Kureto's words had really made me realize some things. I never had any hope of being accepted into the family, for the very Hiragi name was my lease and I was the clueless dog.

I sighed for the millionth time. Today was completely and utter hell, yet despite that, I was smiling. Yes, I was smiling because of Guren. My thoughts turned back to him as I stared at the ceiling. Did he do it for fun? Is he in love with me? Why did he kiss me? Over and over, the questions ran through my head. I knew it was going to be near impossible to sleep.

I wondered what I could do to pass the time. I wanted to try and not think about anything that happened today. I tried so hard to not think about Guren, but he was stuck on my mind.

I remembered how Kureto asked me for a report every day. I didn't quite know how he wanted me to submit these reports, so I decided to just email the report to him.

I got up and went over to my desk. I turned on my laptop and pulled up my email. I typed in Kureto's email address, and then set out on writing a small report. I only learned one possible thing, so I didn't write much.

I sent the email, and laid back down on my bed. I just wanted to try to sleep, but that hope was soon shattered by the ding of my laptop telling me I had a new email.

I reluctantly pulled myself out of bed, and walked over to the desk. I was surprised to see that Kureto had replied to my email. I opened the email, read it, and sighed with relief. I wasn't in trouble for anything, yet I thought I might be. I sent a quick reply to his request and then waited. He replied back to my email immediately. I read it and then got up and went back to my bed. There was no need to reply to his email.

I climbed back under the covers and thought about how I got into this mess in the first place. Then, my thoughts turned negative. If I'm nothing more than a dog, then does that mean my life was meaningless from the start? Was I adopted into the Hiragi family to be a pet?

I wondered if Kureto actually considered me a pet, or if he was just saying it for the hell of it. Am I a pet or am I...?

Guren's face popped into my head. I thought about how he kissed me, and how his lips felt against mine. I brought my fingers to my lips yet again. I could still feel that short, simple kiss lingering on my lips. I could still feel the kiss he gave me, but he was no longer here.

I started to doze off with a smile on my face. My mind was consumed by Guren in that moment. Yet, a sudden thought wormed it's way into my tired brain. It was my final thought before I fell asleep.

I wonder...

Does Guren...

See me as nothing but a pet too?