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Trevor Imagine #2

Your Pov (your 29)

Trevor and I have been married for 7 years now. we were neighbors when we were kids and practically grew up together so it was no shock to anyone when we started dating because everyone foresaw it. but these past 29 years that I've come to know Trevor I know that we are perfect for each other and I wouldn't want anyone else by my side.

Since we got married we have started traveling and a lot of it. In these 7 years that we have traveled , we went to the most amazing places on earth and places that you wouldn't believe exist.

But I always felt like there was something missing even though I had Trevor right there next to me through the whole thing.

Every 3 years we take a break from traveling and just relax at home and go and see our family and friends.

But this time when we went back home, something felt different , it felt as if i was out of place in my own home.

But then I realized what was missing, a child. Even after 7 years I had only just realized that I wanted a baby. Half me and half Trevor. It would be the cutest.

So when I brought up the whole 'feeling like something was missing in my life' with Trevor, he knew exactly what I was talking about. He knew that we needed this we needed to Fulfill the empty void that was now controlling our lives with the thing that we knew was missing.

So when we started trying to have a baby it didn't take very long for that to happen and when it did Trevor and I were both so exited about becoming parents that we left all our worries behind.

That was until that day came.

I was only about two months pregnant when I felt that something was wrong. So I went to the doctor - without telling Trevor because I didn't want to worry him-
And all those words that came out of the doctors mouth were the words that I now fear, I never want to hear again.

"I'm sorry but your body is rejecting the baby and by the body not wanting the baby I'm afraid that you have had a miscarriage I'm so sorry"

And that was all it took for me to know that the universe doesn't want me to be a mother.
After that I left the doctor I sat in my car in front of the hospital watching all the new parents walk out with their giggly baby's and knowing that they had a bony that couldn't be broken killed me even more.

That night when I got home I still hadn't cried or showed any emotion since the doctor told me the news, but as soon as I saw Trevor's happy face go down to my stomach to talk to the baby.

I broke.

I knew that he knew what had happened because after being with someone since birth you can usually see what had happened just by there facial expression and believe me he definitely knew.
When he finally got up off the floor he hugged me as tight as he could while his tears were spilling over but still he kept on telling me that everything was okay but, I knew that nothing would be okay.

I knew that we would spend our lives hunting for something that could never fill this gap but at leased we still had each other