◇The Hybrid◆

chapter 23

"stop following me" i say annoyed.

"i can't just leave you alone right now"

"and why not" i snap.

"you need someone to help you cope with this. you just found out a lot about who you are and it's scary stuff. i know when i first found out i lashed out too. i kept pushing everyone away, but in reality.. i just wanted a friend to help me get through it. someone who knew what i was going through. i didn't have that.. but i'm making sure you do"

"jay, that's sweet of you. but i just really want to be alone right now" my tone getting lighter.

"i get it. i didn't want to talk to anyone at first either.." he stops walking behind me. i stop and look back at him.  he's looking down at the ground, kicking some pebbles. he looks up at me. "if you ever want to talk to someone.. you know where to find me"

i nod and turn around, walking away from him. 

i barely get five feet before i collapse sobbing.

i hear quick footsteps rush over to me. his strong arms wrap around me, picking me up.

"no" i whisper, shaking my head.

he ignores me and picks me up, holding me to his chest.

one of his hands supporting my back, the other on the backs of my knees. 

i curl up to his chest, gripping his shirt.

i close my eyes and more tears squeeze out.

"what's wrong with me?" i whisper.

"nothing. you are absolutely perfect"

"don't say that"

"why not?" he asks.

"because it's not true"

"it's very true"

"don't lie. i'm a mess"

"right now you are. but most of the time you are not"

"what does that have to do with anything?"

"just because you're a mess right now does not mean anything is wrong with you" he assures me.

"but i didn't shift"

"what?"

"i felt my eyes change. claws formed over my finger nails"

"i have no idea. but i'll help you find out"

"really?"

"of course"

"that's nice of you" i say.

"hah. don't act so surprised"

"whaaat" i say sarcastically, giggling.

his chest vibrates as he laughs.

i close my eyes again and listen to the sounds of leaves and twigs being crushed under Jay's feet, the pebbles and rocks being kicked away.

i fall asleep clinging to his shirt.

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my head is pounding. my eyes crack open to be greeted by the blinding bright sun light coming through the leaves of the trees.

getting up off the ground, i pat the dirt off me and look around.

i'm in the woods.

..but where in the woods?

i've been in almost every single part of the woods. i used to go there after school to calm down before i went to pick conner up and go home to the monster who abused me.