◇The Hybrid◆

chapter 43

"nice to see that you guys have finally warmed up to each other enough where you finally got the balls to take her innocence away. her most precious gift" derek shakes his head, narrowing his eyes trying to show the sight of me in jay's arms wearing nothing but a sheet wrapped around my frail nude body hasn't affected him even though i can hear the difference in his breathing as he tries to keep his calm. 

"well atleast i didn't have to force her into it" jay shoots back. 

i keep my face burried into his chest so i don't have to face derek's intense stare, i would feel too guilty about.. wait. why should i feel guilty? i have absolutel no reason to. 

i pat jay's arm and he hesitantly sets me to my feet. i face derek, holding the sheet up with my small fingers. i purse my lips and raise my eyebrows, shrugging. "say it" i challenge. 

he seems taken back as his eyes widen a little and hie eyebrows furrow up, not sure to take the challenge or to come up with a witty comment. "it bothers me that you willingly have sex with him and not me" he mutters, crossing his arms over his chest and standing up straight so he towers over me. 

"hmph" i nod and look down. i didn't actually expect him to say it. 

"your turn" he smirks. 

"excuse me?" i ask, looking up from my toes to meet his deadly gaze. 

"you know exactly what i mean, now say it" he grits his teeth. 

i shake my head and bite my lip. "you have no idea what you're talking about, so how do you expect me to?" 

he chuckles and throws his head back, laughing at the ceiling. i furrow my eyebrows and stomp my foot. 

"you just can't stand the thought of me voluntarilly being with another guy, when i couldn't give a shit about you even though you think you're the center of my world. well news flash dick, you're nothing to me. it's about time you realize it" i quote his words in the last sentence. he raises his eyebrows being surprised my my words before laughing venomously. 

"come on, you don't actually believe a word coming out of your mouth and you expect me to?" he fires back by quoting myself. 

i roll my eyes. "you're so full of youself" i take a step to walk away from him but he grabs my wrist, yanking me back to him, almost causing the entire sheet to fall off my body. i gasped when he put a strong hand on the small of my back and pressed me up against him. my hands went to his chest to attempt to push away, but he was too strong for my weak muscled arms and took the chance to pull me even closer. 

"if i'm so full of myself how do i know for a fact that you go weak in the knees everytime i'm in your presence?" he breaths in my ear, making me shutter. "how do i know that you secretly want me to kiss you everytime something goes wrong? everytime something bad happens you want to run into my arms so i will stroke your hair while whispering soothing words into your ear as you slowly drift to sleep knowing that when you wake up i will be right there for you" he nibbles at the top of my ear. "i will always be right here for you layla. no matter how bad you think i am.. i will always be here" he leaves a small kiss on my temple before releasing me and disappearing down the hall. 

i shutter and my knees feel so weak that i collapse to the ground. jay rushes to my side and tries comforting me. i push him away and stand to my feet, holding my hot forehead in my cool hand. 

"come on, i'll take you to my room. you can lie down and get some rest" jay nods, reaching out to gently grab my arm and quide me to his room but i jerk away and stare into his soft blue orbs. "i'm going to sleep in my room tonight.. um. thanks though.. for.." i shrug and sheepishly smile, feeling my cheeks heat up at the rememberance of what we did in my room not even twenty minutes ago. 

he nods, a small smile creeping onto his face as he looks down, wiggling his toes. i sniffle and pull the sheet around my body securly and turn to walk up the stairs. jay's arm reaches out and his fingers wrap around my wrist. he didn't visiously turn me or force me to look at him, he just stood there making sure i didn't leave without him saying one last bit. 

"don't trust him, okay? i know the games he plays.. " he shakes his head and looks down again, sadness taking over his eyes. he looks back up at me and gulps. "he makes your mind go other places, and makes you think that you should be with him.. or that you want to be with him. but don't give in, lay. i know you're stronger than he thinks you are and you need to make sure that you don't run back crawling to him,tears spilling from your eyes.. because in the end you will be begging for mercy. and he will show you none" he shakes his head and slowly lets go of my wrist. 

i let out a shaky breath, taking in his words and trying to undertsand what they could possibly mean because i know they have more meaning than he's letting on. i slowly nod and turn, walking up the stairs. as i crawl into my bed and try to sleep, i can't help but think about the two boys that drive me crazy insane but i can't help but have feeling for them both. they both had different words, but had mostly the same meaning.

don't go with him, come with me. 

in the end i know i will have to pick one.. but i just don't know if i will be able to stand living without the other.