Perfect Imperfections | Marco Diaz X Reader

Chapter 17: Sour Sweet

Y/N's POV

She's here.

Those were the only words that repeated throughout my head. I couldn't think of anything else other than her. And that's a really bad thing. What could she possibly want? She already made my life a living hell in the past and now she's going to make it one in the present too?

Questions started to branch out my head. Horrible conclusions are what I could think of. I came here to start a new life and I like the way I'm living. I'm already happy. But, when things get too good, something bad is always gonna happen.

That's why... I'm afraid of getting too joyous.

Please tell me this isn't happening.

"Y/N, tell us what's wrong." Yusi starts.

It was our free time and I'm hanging out with Yusi and Janna at the moment. Jackie said she's off to go somewhere important. Marco's with Star since he said he needed to help Star in her business.

And Lucas? We're still not talking or making any contact with each other. I was really disappointed with him and I couldn't face him after all the things he said. And to make matters worse, Xandra Wilson is here.

I don't want her to scar my life again. I'm not tough even though I'm already taking karate lessons after what happened to me. I'm still weak. I can't stand up for myself. I'm scared.

"Everything's fine..." I lie. Nothing's fine.

"No, it's not. Your smile's upside-down." Janna points out.

Oh.

I sigh and smile, "See? All better! Everything is perfect."

"It's because of that new girl, isn't it?" Yusi guesses while putting her hands on her lap.

Even with just calling her the 'new girl' it was like noise to my ears. How much more if somebody mentions her name?

"You mean, Xandra Wilson?" My ears want to bleed just by hearing the name of that girl. "You know her, Y/N?" Janna asks.

I took a deep, comforting breath, "Yes, I do know her." I confirm. "Of course, why would she even know your name in the first place?" Yusi says.

"Yeah, I assumed that you both are friends since she greeted you like you were a friend." Janna lays her back on the chair she was sitting. "Used to be friends." I correct to make things clear.

Yes, she used to be my friend way back then until something inferior happened.

"But, I don't wanna talk about it, I-I just can't..." I rub my arm and bit my lip. I'm unstable to even think clearly because my head's full of past events I want to forget. I wish I had an eraser that could erase memories so that I wouldn't have to deal with pain by just remembering.

"Hmm, yeah, we heard you had a rough past but that's okay! Your life is better now!" Yusi comforts.

I guess I can put it that way but,

How did they know my past was rough?

I never told anyone about anything related to my past. Not even Marco. Only the people from my past knew such as Lucas. But, he wouldn't tell them, I'm sure of it. Things were unfavorable that night but he would never do such a thing. Maybe, I just slipped it out.

"Thank you."

We chatted for a bit unrelated to her of course. They wanted to cheer me up and distract me from forgetting her and to talk about her was just not helping. I tried to focus about their little chat about their plans on Friday afternoon after school.