I wake up In the morning with a wide smile plastered on my groggy face. The thought that this drama filled life was over made me actually want to go to school. I knew I should've went to the party. My mind shifted into thinking about our kisses. I know that no friends kiss each other like that, so why us? It's obvious we—I have feelings for him. I am unsure if his are mutual, but it's okay because we are just friends. Just friends.
I get up and do my morning routine, well I don't really have one but I will start now."Teenagers" by My Chemical Romance blasts on my phone, as I run to my closet. This song reminds me so much of Zayn.
"Because the drugs never work, he's gonna give you a smirk, cause they got methods to keepin' you clean,"
I hum along as I decide my outfit for today. I have never cared about my appearance really. But for some reason I want to impress Zayn. Zayn, Zayn, Zayn. He's constantly on my mind. This isn't normal for "just friends", but I'm sure he doesn't think about me. My phone rings, interrupting my song. I pick it up, and you can just hear the smile in my voice.
"Hello?" I answer the ringing.
"Hey. I can't pick you up today because my mom is taking my car. She's dropping me off at school first, I'm sorry." My smile forms into a frown. I reply with an "Okay." and we both say goodbye. I forgot he had a car, I thought we were taking the bus. I dial Macy to ask for her to take me, and she said that Kelsee will be picking her up which means Kelsee is coming. I want to thank Kelsee so much, for bringing me too that party. I have no clue why I am so excited I have Zayn back, my best friend for almost two years. It boggles my mind 10th grade is almost over and most of it was spent with pure hell. That's why, because I'm finally going to be out of hell.
I curl my brown long hair, which took about 20 minutes. I put on a floral print dress and flats. I put on my limited make up and I finally feel satisfied with my looks. I don't think I'm ugly, I am confident about myself but not overly confident. Kelsee was waiting downstairs as a yell "bye" to my mom.
"Damn girl." Kelsee says as we walk out to the car.
"Did you get a new car?" I ask her, looking in her direction as we walk closer.
"No, this is Zayn's car. Duh." She laughs.
"But he told me his mo—"
"Hey precious." Zayn smiles and opens my door. I jump in fear, but then excitement.
"Hi." I blush. Kelsee roles her eyes as I get in the car, and Macy looks tired and buzzed.
"What happened to you?" I ask Macy, who normally looks perfect. She looks like I used to, sweat pants and a baggy shirt with no make up.
"I did drugs!" She laughs and her head falls on Kelsee's.
"Yea, you did a lot too." Zayn adds.
"Your car smells like smoke. Zayn? Have you been smoking?" Macy asks, scrunching her nose.
"Yeah." He answers. I don't remember smelling it yesterday, but I wasn't paying attention to anything else but him. I do remember tasting a gross unknown taste whilst we kissed, but I couldn't identify it till now.
"Gross." Kelsee says, lighting her cigarette and we laugh. Zayn asks for one and they both smoke, leaving me and Macy smelling of tobacco all day.
We arrive at school early, unlike usual. Zayn puts out is cigarette after a final puff and grabs my hand. I flinch at first. He let's go, knowing he messed up.
"Sorry...I...Perrie...never mind." Zayn says speeding up, not allowing me to speak. That won't stop me.
"I'm not mad." I say, catching up.
"Perrie will be." He says, not looking at me.
"Perrie? I thought you guys broke up?"
"We did...and then got back together. I love her Carmen, it took me so long to realize it. But can't you see my life is perfect now. I have my best friend, my girlfriend, and my tattoos. Life couldn't get any better."
"Yeah." I say, trying not to sound hurt. Today is not as great as I expected.
"You're alright with that, right?" He asks. We stop in the front to talk for a bit while Macy and Kelsee goes inside.
"No. I'm not. But what can I do?" I say.
"God dammit, Carmen, can I ever please you?" He snaps at me.
"You breaking up with Perrie was just an act so we would stop having all this drama, not because you care about me. All those kisses...were meaningless? I'm sure If you told Perrie she will flip. We better get going."
"They weren't meaningless. They're wonderful. But you never loved me and I had to find someone else." He sighs.
"What?" I asked astonished.
