The walk and bus ride home was awkward. Zayn and I barely talked. He did walk me to the door and I half expected him to kiss me. I have to constantly remind myself that I'm not in a fairy tale, and we probably will never kiss again. I immediately jump down on the couch. I don't even change or shower. I just want to sleep.
I wake up to the smell of burning eggs. My mom is in the kitchen freaking out over her burnt breakfast. A smile creeps upon my face. That was good considering I have been crying since yesterday. I get off the couch and stretch. My back hurts from sleeping on the couch. Not one of my smartest ideas. I walk into the kitchen and scare my mom, on accident.
"Hey mom, I missed you." I hug her, but she doesn't hug back. Uh-oh.
"What are you doing wearing my dress and make up? I know you don't own that much make up. And it's smeared all over your face. You look a mess. What did you do last night?" She scolds. She's mad, which isn't good for me right now.
"I-I-I well, I, um, well...I went to Laura's party with Zayn. But I left early, mom! I promise! It wasn't fun and everyone was drunk!" I break down in tears, remembering what actually happened.
"Stop crying and go fix yourself up. You have school today, go get ready." She says firmly. I think she understands. I wa upstairs refusing to look at any mirrors. I don't want to go to school. Laura is going to ruin my life.
I don't go out of my way to look good. I put my hair in a pony tail and wear sweats and a Pink Floyd shirt. To be honest, I don't even like that band. My mom just gave it to me. I put on mascara but not too much, I'm probably going to be crying anyway. I put on my shoes and grab my back pack, running down stairs. My mom is waiting by the door with keys in her hand and her arms crossed. She looks impatient and opens the door. She rakes her sunglasses off her head and places them on her face.
"You look very sloppy." She says, opening her car door. I proceed to open mine as well.
"Thanks." I roll my eyes, but she didn't see. Thank god.
The car ride was seemingly slow and boring. Normally my mom and I chat and have fun, it's pretty much the most time we ever spend with eachother. We arrive at the school and a get out of the car, not saying goodbye to my mom. It's not that I was being rude, I just forgot. I walk as fast as I can to avoid everyone. As I enter the building I find Zayn standing and waiting for me, which I wasn't expecting.
"Hey," he smiles.
"Hi." I say. We walk to our first period, in which Laura sits right next to me. We've been in school for three months and I have to deal with her everyday. She's alway nice to me, but as soon as we walk in she gives me the most deathly stare I've seen. I feel like running away. I take a seat right next to Zayn and Laura. Laura has already written a note and passed it to me.
Laura: I didn't think you would show up today. I'm glad you did, I have many suprises for you and your boyfriend.
Me: He's not my boyfriend and we didn't do anything in the bathroom! We were trying to get away from the mess.
Laura: Jessie caught you guys, don't lie to me, Carmen. I know what happened.
Me: What did she tell you?
Laura: That you were sucking him off in the bathroom.
Me: What?! No! Ew! No! No! I didn't!
Laura: Oh, please.
Me: I'm serious. Please don't spread anything
She crumbled the note and put in the desk. I get up and ask to use the bathroom. I wanted to cry, I needed to cry. Zayn looks at me with concern, than looks at Laura with anger. He knew she did something.
I run to the bathroom crying. I lock the door. I want to stay in here forever. I hear someone open the door and quickly shut up. A few sniffles escape my nose and it completely gave me away.
"Carmen are you seriously crying?" I hear a voice say, extremely rude. It was Jessie, of course.
"No." I say, hiding my hoarse voice. I hear her scoff. I flush the toilet as if I actually used it. I slowly open the door and walk to wear Jessie's standing.
"Not crying my ass. You're pathetic." She says looking at my messed up red face.
"You know what's pathetic? The fact that you lied to Laura just because you don't like me. You're a childish bitch who is ruining my freshman year." I half yell. She doesn't say anything. She knows what I said was true. I'm sure she's thinking of something to say. She takes a paper towel and walks out. The clicks of her heels annoy me. I follow her out, wiping the black mascara off under my eyes. As soon as I walked into the room, Laura laughs quietly. Why was she laughing? My phone begins to vibrate. I roll my eyes, not wanting to check it. But the temptation was too much, and I checked it. The teacher was rambling on about Edgar Allen Poe. That man was a disturbed man. When I unlocked my phone, it was a bunch of forwarded messages from Laura. Oh lord.
Original Message: So Jessie caught Carmen sucking Zayn's dick in my bathroom. I knew she was a whore and that pisses me off. Why do these things happen to me?! FML.
Fwd: lol Carmen? Rly? Gross! She dsnt look like she wuld do tht!
Fwd: Knew it haha
Fwd: Awwwww sorry Lar Lar!!!
Fwd: Zayn's cute thoooooo
I stop reading them. What a fake. Why am I letting this get to me? The bell rings. Thank god. As I reach the hallway Zayn grabs my arm.
"Why did you tell everyone that I touched you in appropriately? What is your problem? I get it, you don't want anyone to blame you. I thought you were better than that. I can't believe I kissed those lying dirty lips, and to think I liked you?! Just, just..." he grunts and let's go of me. He leaves before I could say anything. My mind is walking to class, but my feet are running to the exit door. I run out of the building. I just lost my best and only friend, and now everyone hates me. I don't even realize I'm running. Tears run down my face, I just want to disappear.
