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Feb 22, 2017

I broke up with you last night. I got tired of you never acknowledging me when I was with you, never really wanting to do a lot of stuff with me. It hurts so bad. I really miss you. You were my best friend, and now you're gone and it's my fault but I can't take you back. Not until you learn how to treat a girl right.

You left before I could give you reasons why I was breaking up with you other than, "This isn't working."

So for your future girlfriend, here's what you need to do that you never did for me:

Pay for her. I know I didn't let you pay for me, but always pay for her anyways

Get your freaking license so you can drive her places. You should be picking her up at her house and dropping her off afterwards. That's what I wanted you to do with me but I guess I wasn't a big enough reason for you to get your license.

Hold open the door for her. Pull out her chair. Let her go first. Always tell her how gorgeous she looks, especially when she's put in a lot of effort or no effort at all.

Be her best friend. You were so good at listening through texts but in real life  I would tell you something and right after you'd go, "What?" then laugh it off like it was funny. It wasn't funny. It told me you didn't care enough to listen, often to answer to questions that you asked me.

Hold her hand somewhere other than a dark movie theatre. You should want to show her off; she should be one of the greatest things in your life. Don't hide her or blow her off in front of your friends. Hold her hand and give her hugs in front of other people, letting them know how much she means to you.

Sit with her when you can. If there's one side of her that's open, then you go sit there. Who cares what other people think. She's your girl, treat her like it. There will rarely be times she won't want to sit with you.

Don't lie to her. Don't tell her you can't wait to talk to her and then not say a word to her like you did to me. Don't tell her you really want to cuddle with her when you pull away from her touch like you did me. Don't tell her you love hearing her voice when you never listen to her or call her, like you did me. Don't tell her you want to kiss her when you can't even hold her hand in public, like you did me. Don't tell her you love her and then not show it, like you did me.

DON'T GET ON YOUR PHONE WHEN YOU TWO HAVE SET ASIDE TIME SPECIFICALLY TO TALK TO EACH OTHER. If it's an emergency, then let her know. But scrolling through Instagram and watching YouTube videos when she has set aside time to talk to you in person is not polite. It's rude. Save that for other times.

Walk her to class when you can! We had two classes close to each other's and you waked me a grand total of two day out of the four months we dated. Once again, you should be showing her off.

You were so good at telling me all the right things, but you did all the wrong things. You have so much potential to be the best boyfriend, but you just don't have the etiquette do pull it off. Be a gentlemen in a world of bad boys. You're capable; I know it.

I hope you're doing well. I had two people call you after we broke up to make sure you were okay. I still care a lot about you. I miss you a lot. Maybe in the future, we'll figure things out. But right now, it isn't working. And I'm really sorry it isn't.