I dated you for almost 10 months. I was committed. We made the distance work. I thought you were the one. And then last night happened.
You betrayed me. You shredded my trust and abused the kindness of my best friend. Sure we've technically been broken up for almost two weeks but I think last night was our real break up.
And it hurt like hell.
All we were trying to do was hurt each other. Pure ugly destruction. It ended horribly. I was bawling and upset.
Today was worse. I have blocked out the hideous argument of yesterday (not intentionally) so that all I can think of when I'm not busy is our happy memories. You made me so happy, yet you caused me such pain.
So today I apologized for some things I said last night, as do you. But you have not changed, much like you had insisted. 19 years worth of problems and you had tried to convince me you changed in a week and a half.
I despise you.
And yet I love, care about and miss you all at once.
But we are no more. We will never be where we once were. My only regret is believing that you were the one. It's caused me so much pain.
YOU ARE READING
"Oh."
Romance"Oh." A single word filed with disappointment The journal tracking my progress of getting over you.
