Lesson never learned

Meeting Someone New

Two days had passed since I broke up with Cameron, We didn't break up on good terms. I broke up with him when I was so down on myself, I told him that I cheated on him several times. I ruined him and he will never forgive me for it. I can't believe I finally did it! My heart hurt for a while and somehow I'm already over him. We were together for so long, I thought I would shed some tears when I did it. I guess I didn't really love him, I told him I did. He was just a support system, Someone I could run to for help. Then again he stopped being there for me. 

I still haven't talked to my mom since that happened, I came up with the money to pay my rent. Things were looking up, No not really. I've never felt so alone and sad. I had no one to comfort me when I felt bad and ran a fever for no reason. I had no one to wrap me up and hold me. I felt so small and needy. 

I wanted to find someone who would love and care for me, Why did I always turn to online dating for this? I'm asking for too much from the internet. I went and joined Tinder again in search of a perfect man to fill my sad void in my heart. Hours passed as I liked and disliked. I didn't think about much as I looked at what was out there for me. 

My phone made a ping noise as I got up from my bed to get my leftover pasta. I didn't look and continued to search for my pasta. I pulled out my mac and cheese and put it in the microwave. As my food warmed up, I looked at my notifications. I saw a new match on Tinder sent me a message. When I looked at it, It was no ordinary "Hello."  He actually took the time to read my bio and find out my favorite song. I smiled as I read the song lyric. 

  Carter:  A company always on the run. A destiny, oh it's the rising sun.  

My favorite song was Bad Company by Five Finger Death Punch and He knew it. I didn't even know the guy and I already wanted to. I sent him a smiley face and went to go eat my pasta. He replied rather quickly. Man, He must really be interested. 

He told me a little about him and I did the same. I could tell he wasn't just looking to fuck and that made him even more worth talking to. We exchanged phone numbers and I'm not going to lie this felt so weird. I stopped talking to him for a while as I went to go to my first job interview in a long time. 

Okay, okay so maybe a job interview at the nearest dollar tree wasn't that exciting but at least it would make some money and I could stop selling my possessions for money.  I quickly threw on some dress pants and a decent shirt and ran to my car. I smiled as I drove to Dollar Tree, I think If this goes well with Carter that I might actually be faithful. Something about him just felt so right and we just started talking. I got to Dollar tree and took a quick deep breath before collecting my things. Okay okay, let's do this. I gave myself a small pep talk as I walked inside. 

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thirty minutes later I ran out of Dollar Tree with a big smile on my face. I let out a happy yelp as I opened my car door. So I got the job! That was the easiest job interview ever!