Pressure (A Matthew Healy story)

Secrets

I was so embarrassed what's worse than being caught snooping in someone's home.

"I was ....I mean....I thought.... ugh I'm just sorry okay.?"

"Luc calm down, I'm not upset with you. just don't look through my stuff again okay."

"I'm sorry and okay"

"Thank you."

Matt was unusually chill about the situation now if that was me he'd be bleeding out on the floor. I was itching more than ever to find out what was in the dresser. I don't wanna risk getting  caught Again. Matty came and sat on the bed in the far corner of the room. He looked really deep in thought until he finally spoke .

"This .....This is my room. I don't really sleep much so I don't come in here but my mom left me this apartment before she went away. "

Went away? I wonder where she went. I don't ask because I don't wanna a be intrusive. Now I really wanna know what was in the dresser. I wanted to change the subject before things got too emotional.

"Matt?.... Do you have any plans today ?"

"Shouldn't you look for a job?"

"Nah I only had the job for a little extra in my pocket my grandparents they're loaded with cash.and this little baby holds it all" I hold up the visa with pride as it glints with the morning sun.

"Niceeee"

"Anyways,Plans have any?"

"I don't plan my day whatever happens happens"

"Then let's wander together"

"Let's"

With that Matt got dressed in his all black outfit and we set out to the early city.

   We started walking towards a clothing store. It looked like a vintage store. Matty grabbed my hand a pulled me inside with him. He grabbed a few black skinny jeans black shirts and black socks . I started walking to the counter assuming that's where all people go. Matty step in front of me with a sly grin on his face .

"Wrong way yeah?"

I watched in aw as Matty walked right out the store with his stuff. He looked me in the eyes and for a moment I felt like I could feel all the sorrow behind them even though he was always grinning .

"RUN LUC RUN!"

I snapped out of my trance and made a run for it . I quickly caught up with Matty not risking getting separated. That's how our day played out walking into stores and doing what Matt calls unexpected donation .Our last stop was this new liquor store. Matt put a bottle of vodka in his black jacket . This time we didn't run because Matt says liquor store owners have guns and running makes us look suspect.

   We went back to Matt's house he pulled out a couple of glasses and we started taking shots. I don't really drink so I almost throw up the first one. Matt was having like 3 every minute I tried to tell him to slow down but he says he'll be alright.

"Hey Luc wanna know a secret."

We all know drunk secrets are never good. But My fucking curiosity always gets the best of me.

"Uh yeah sure"

  " My mom was a bit loose if you know what I mean. She  left me and my pops when I was about 7 and she's been sending me post cards and letters wherever she was . I never wrote back to her because I hated her for leaving. Once I decided I was mature enough to Handle my feelings I wrote them down and sent it to her. The ironic thing was you see my letter came back with a stamp that said Deceased."

With that Matt had passed out from all the vodka. And I was damn right.  Drunk secrets never end well.

*authors note* okay so I don't update everyday because just like everyone else I have school I have exams I have  after school clubs so yeah when I have the time I do it so like don't hate me.*