Pressure (A Matthew Healy story)

Hey There

             Luc P.O.V

I don't remember the last I've been outside . I want to venture today. I remember when Matt and I robbed that store together. I wished that feeling never stopped. I wash up and wake Matt up.

    "TIME TO GET UP BABE ITS TIME TO HAVE FUN LETS GO LETS GO LETS GOOOO!!"

  "LUC WHAT THE - ! ugh okay love let's go."

Matt and I eat breakfast at the local café, not that one. I order a bagel with butter and some orange juice . Then it hit me .

How the fuck are we paying for this. I've never seen Matt get up or complain about going to work. I've been out of work for a while now. Which reminds me what happens to Josh , Stacy and that fuck head Alex?

    "Matt?"

With a mouth full of bacon "Mmmm?" Matt answers

  "What do you do for a living ?"

" I live "

"Matt seriously what do you do?"

"Don't worry about it."

"Matt how are we paying for this , How do you even pay your bills?! , I can't believe I've been oblivious to this ...."

"LUC DROP IT"

Matt yelled banging his fork against the table bringing attention to our table. He then slammed two 20$ bills on the table then left me there to feel embarrassed.

I don't want to argue with him I just want to know.

   I follow out of the café. Matt is standing by the light pole smoking a cigarette. I walk up to him and look him in his eyes. I can't bare another argument over miscommunication.

   "Matt I- "

"Im sorry " we say simultaneously.

I smile up at him and he smiles down at me.
"No, it's okay Luc I'm just a little on the edge about starting over I don't want to mess up again."
  "You won't, can we go see Stacy and Josh sometime ?"
"Uh ... Sure. He says with a questionable tone.

I know , why would i want to go see them after what happened the first time I met them. Well just Alex that peice of shit. I just want to see some famliar faces . 

Matt and I walk down the street , I start taking in my surroundings into account. We walk past several stores and my heart doesnt skip a beat until we get to the clothing store in which we robbed. The feeling was so beautiful, even if someonne told me everything Matt and I would gp through i wouldn't believe them. Matt and I tend to always get lot within our own silence so when Matt started asking me where i wanted to go for ice cream , although it was still early i completely ignored him until he playfully nudged me on the shoulder.

"Hey Lucccyyy"

Matt called to get my attention. For some reason i get an uncomfortable feeling when Matt calls me Lucy instead of Luc it has a foriegn ring to it now.

"Huh, ? What?"

" I said where do ya wanna go for some Ice Cream?"

" Matt its not even 12 yet ."

"So?"

"Soooo, why would i want Ice Cream?"

"Ypu see Lucy that's where you gotta start listening, I never said we were heading there right now."

I felt my face heat up. He was right... there he goes again calling me 'Lucy'

"Are you mad at me?" I ask because Matt only calls me Lucy when he's uncomfortable or being really serious.

"No, why?"

"Because you keep calling me 'Lucy' and not 'Luc' like usual , hearing you say it makes me feel weird, and not in a good way."

"Well Lucy , maybe I want to call you Lucy, I did tell you I liked the way it sounded dont you remember?"

Of course I remember but i would like to think we were past being formal with eachother.

"Yeah, but i dont like it."

"Yeah well I do."

We keep walking and get lost in our silence again. I'm not bothered by any of this until I realize I have no idea where we're going.

Oh Hello guys , you know how the world works in weird ways so yeah i havent updated in 2 months but hey its better than two years right lol. Just bear with me please