Pressure (A Matthew Healy story)

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LUC P.O.V.

I eventually grew tired of watching Matt pace around the apartment , so I went over to the sink and grabbed a cup from the cabinet and poured myself some water. I was a little hesitant because how would I know where his cups were ? On the other hand those types of thing have common places so I went ahead and did it. I went back to the couch for a little while more until Matt's phone rang and he said he had to 'step out ' to take this call. I took it upon myself again to go wonder around the apartment . I found myself back into the room with the black walls. It feels as if although everything else in my life has changed and was changing this room stayed exactly the same. The paint is still chipping of the walls, the drawing of the house and kids were still the same, the smell of the room was still the same. I can't help but remember when Matt and I just stared into each others eyes for hours in the room, how I felt so close to him and I had nothing but trust for him. I want to tell him so bad that I'm lying. I don't want to see the pain I saw in his eyes that day. I'm stuck between lying for my own satisfaction , which I'm not even getting , or telling Matt the truth and wait for his breakdown or Outburst.

    Matt's P.O.V.

    There was no call.

I had to get away from her or I would just crack . She's doing all this shit to get back at me. I never knew that I drove her this far away. If I would've gotten over getting my heart broken none of this would have happened . It's always my fault some how.

I step back into the apartment to find that Luc moved from the couch. There's only one room here that has any meaning to the both of us. I head to the room with the black walls. The door is closed , I open it to find Luc curled up in the middle of the floor hugging her knees and she seems to be crying . I know she can't mentally take this I'm done with hiding this is hurting us both.

  Luc doesn't know I step into the room. I go over and sit right in front of her. She looks up and I can feel the agony in her soft brown eyes. I need to get this over with.

     Luc P.O.V.

I look up to find Matt sitting in front of me. I can't express how terrible I look and feel.

I need to tell him about this I need to or I'll end up breaking down .

I look up into Matt's eyes his gaze meets mines . He looks so sympathetic, like he's telling me it's okay. I know its not and I don't know how to word my confession and its eating me alive

    

     Matt's P.O.V

She won't be able to say it. I know because she's like that. She'd rather put my feelings before hers. I have to tell her.

"I know." Is all I can say.

   We both are aware of the context in speaking about. The way Lucs eyes widen with so much surprise shows me how oblivious she is and makes me want to hug her , but I won't. She doesn't say a word. She just slowly gets up and starts heading for the front door.

    "LUC ! YOU'RE NOT GOING TO RUN AGAIN"

  She ignores me and keeps walking away a little bit faster now. I can't let her leave not like this not again.

When she opens the front door to leave I'm right behind her and I slam it shut. She needs to talk to me about this she can't storm off.

  "LET ME GO MATT , YOU KNEW YOU KNEW THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME DIDNT YOU?! I JUST WANTED TO SEE IF YOU WOULD CHANGE ANYTHING IF YOU GOT THE CHANCE.  WE HAVE YET TO BRING UP HOW YOU TRIED TO MAKE ME KILL SOMEONE! LET ME FUCKING GO!"

    "If you leave I won't chase you " I say in a low voice because I don't even believe what's coming out of my mouth.

   "WHAT?" Luc keeps yelling which is pissing me off.

  "I SAID IF YOU LEAVE I WON'T FUCKING CHASE YOU, BECAUSE YOU'RE RUNNING AWAY FROM YOUR PROBLEM. IF YOU RUN AWAY FROM ME AGAIN I WON'T CHASE YOU!'

  I look at Luc to see her standing in shock as if she never expected those words to come out my mouth. I had to or she would leave. Of course I would chase her but I would say anything to get her to stay.

  Luc P.O.V

  He wouldn't chase me ? After everything ?  My legs become weak and I slide down the door frame back to sitting on my butt. I try to block out Matt's presence by putting my head down on my knees and covering my ears. Its childish but I need to leave. He's not letting me. I try to get up to leave one more time to find that Matt is actually sitting in front of me again. This time he looks tired. I get up to leave and he grabs my wrist .

   " please just ...just stay don't leave me not again not like this Lucy " He sounds so weak .

I couldn't leave when he's practically on his last whim and all he wants is for me to stay.

  "Okay" I don't say anymore and I sit next to him.

We sit beside each other for a while neither of us saying anything. We know we don't have to.

    Matt's P.O.V.

I got her to stay. Even if its just sitting beside each other in silence at least she's beside me. I turn to look at her and I can resist. I pull her into a hug. Although its an awkward one because we're both sitting I don't care. I just need to hold her in my arms. She puts her head in the cress of my neck and I can feel her crying . We both need this. We need each other .

   "No more lies " I say into her ear with a whisper because nothing is loud right now. Not even the our emotions.

   Luc P.O.V

"No more lies " He says. I'm happy to be with him right now. This has been a crazy ride for the both of us a little integrity is what we both need.

  "No more lies" That's the last thing I said before I fell asleep in his arms.

A/n ummm hi guys lol its been like forever what can I say school started so I got hella busy sorry ? How's school going for everyone. If you're still even reading this story ilysm because I'm not consistent and I really do appreciate the support .Hopefully I won't take almost a month to update next time.I'm sorry again, don't forget to comment it really helps. Thanks for reading guys -Ashley