Pressure (A Matthew Healy story)

Uncertainty

I never imagined the feeling of fear will fall upon me when I was with Matt , ever.

I looked at my phone with pity, self-pity because I let one man change me , change me in ways I never thought I could be changed .

"That's my girl , quick on her toes."

Matt stepped forward to put his hand on my shoulder and I couldn't help but  jitter at his touch, it wasn't the same everything felt wrong.

Matt as sure as anyone else could feel the tension in the room, and he stepped away from me and looked me in the eyes

"Luc ,you can't be seriously thinking I'm the one in the wrong here , this bastard he ....he.." Matt was choking up

I immediately felt terrible and selfish.

"No Matt it's not that , its Just I'm not used to everything happening so fast and its all a bit much , I'm sorry."

"Lucy you have to trust me .I would never do anything to upset you."

"Umm Matt .."

"Mhmm?"

"Are you going to kill him.?"

"Would it upset you if I did.?"

"A little bit yeah. "

I wonder if Matt would really kill him if I didn't mind.

"I'll take that into consideration love "

"Um thanks "

I wasn't completely comfortable not knowing if Bret would be killed or not , but I was not in the mood for further conversation about this.

  I packed up whatever I had left to pack and Matt and I headed back to his flat. On the drive back I guess Matt could tell I was a little tense because he leaned over and kissed me on the cheek , then put his hand on my thigh .

I was slowly forgetting the feeling of fear I had only moments ago back at my no longer apartment.

This part of Matt makes me forget , at least for a while the unpredictable evening that lied ahead of us.

(authors note I'm sooo sorry I havent uploaded in 5ever. ive been so stressfully busy :( I'm writing the next chapter already and it'll be up by Tuesday the latest sorry again guys ♥ -Ashley