Pressure (A Matthew Healy story)

Here Goes Everything

I woke up the next morning , well I shouldn't say 'woke up' because I honestly never fell asleep. How could I when today is the day.

I called Bret to make sure the plans were still on.

"Hey..., Yeah it's me , we're still good to go this afternoon right ?"

"Of course Lucy! See you there."

"Okay see you"

Every time I get off the phone with Bret the guilt seeps deeper. The only thing that kept me sane was the warmful kiss Matt gave me only hours before.

I was still worried sick. There is still a possibility Matt may kill Bret and undoubtedly it would be my fault. Could I live with that ; I think not .

I get out of bed with Matt and go to take a shower and start getting ready for my long day ahead.

I'm in the kitchen looking through the fridge , finding nothing but old pizza boxes.

I try my luck and heat up a slice . I pour a cup of juice and eat my pitiful breakfast.

I look at my phone and it reads 11:30, I have 30 minutes to practice my acting skills . I hurry and wake up Matt.

  "Today is the day love " Matt says a little to eagerly, not helping my worries at all.

"Yeah ....I guess this really is it."

My mind wonders off imagining all the possible scenarios . I even imagine Matt was playing a trick on me or something .

Matt and I leave his flat at 11:55 , it's always good to be fashionably late even if it is to set someone up for death right ?

Once Matt and I hit Green ave my heart starts to come out my throat. I feel so dirt and wrong. I mean its not fair what Bret did to Matts' sister but should he die for it? I have no idea what's going to happen and its driving me crazy.

I finally build up the courage to hop out the car. I start to walk towards the café and take a seat.

5 minutes pass and I see Bret walking towards me with all smiles. I instantly start regretting setting this up.

Bret sits down and I instantly question him .

"Bret , do you know anyone named Matthew?"

"I know a lot of people Lucy hahaa"

"Leeme re-frase that , did you abuse a girl to the point of suicide?"

Brets' expression was unexplainable.

"Fuck , sorry but it all makes so much sense. This Matt seems really dark and mysterious luring with the eyes and accent?"

"yeah..."

There seems to be more to the story than what u was told.

"That bastard still goes around telling that bullshit."

Bret takes a deep sigh and I lean in with interest .

"What do you mean"

"The loser and I hung out for a while around two summers back. You remember my sister Destiny? Well, they started getting real close. I knew he was full of shit so I told her to stay away from him. It got to the point my parents had to send her to Oregon with our aunt because he got her into drugs and so much shit "

"Yeah...."

"He blames me for taking away 'His one true love'

truth is she was a virgin and he just wanted to pop it "

"Wait so how does Matts" sister get involved?"

"She doesn't."

"What! Why ?"

"Because he doesn't have one."