Pressure (A Matthew Healy story)

Again

    Luc P.O.V

I wake up to find myself lying back where this whole mess started. Matt's bed. I take a look around like I did the first time but I don't feel panicked. I look to my side to find an empty side of the bed just the imprints of Matt's body. I rub my hands over my face to bring awareness to myself. I get out of the bed a head to the bathroom . I cant get it out of my head.

         "No more lies "

I'm ready to start over with Matt but at the same time I'm scared that this is happening too fast. Do I love him ? How can't I ? How can you go through so much with someone and not feel anything towards them ? I can't hate Matt I don't have it in me. We made a promise , one that I plan on keeping .

             Matt's P.O.V

I've gone out to the market to get some breakfast for Luc and I. I'm pretty sure neither of us want a shot for breakfast. I can only imagine how she feels about starting over with me. I know that I'm not worth much by I'll try to be worth it. The promise we made to each other , "No more Lies" I want an honest relationship. I'm some what nervous because the last relationship I had was with Destiny and that didn't end well. At some point I guess I'll have to tell Luc the story from beginning to end .We can't really move on if I hide this major point that literally took us both to our breaking points. I want to cross that bridge when we get there so for now I won't tell if she doesn't ask. .

I head into the market buying the basics eggs, milk, bread and some orange juice. I pay for it all and make my way back to the apartment. 

                      Luc P.O.V

In the bathroom I take one of the best showers of my life. The amount of stress the steaming hot water takes from my tense body makes me feel so relived. I put on some sweatpants and a over sized sweater because why not I deserve to at least be comfortable after all this. I go to the living room after I get done with all the normal hygienics. I lie on the couch and turn the TV. Spongebob was on singing the Campfire as fast as he could, of course I sing along because I can sing the campfire song faster than SpongeBob himself.

   I hear key jingle on the opposite side of the door. To no surprise it was Matt. He had a bag full of breakfast things and I unpacked them as him put the bag on the counter. I don't want things to be awkward but I have no idea what to say.

          Matt's P.O.V

Well this is awkward as fuck. I come home to Luc being all shyly silent while unpacking the groceries.

    "Uhhh have a nice sleep Luc ?"

She nods answering yes but still doesn't speak , what is up with her ? I walk up behind her and grab her by the waist and I can just feel her body tense up. I put my head on her shoulders and ask her softly what's wrong. She turns around and just hugs me. Its more of a 'I need to make sure this is real' kind of hug. I know that if I'm nervous she must feeling the same. She looks me in my eyes and gives me that smile that always reassuring. Always letting me know things are okay. Her smile gives me more hope than any words she can speak. I know that's the smile I wanna wake up to for the rest of my life.

A/n Hai  I know I'm inconsistent but I can't give you an empty promise and say I'll change its hard lol. I feel like I lead a *pours the cereal but there's no milk * kind of like how about you ? Seriously if you're still reading I really really love and appreciate you more than you'll ever know  so thank you - Ashley