Pressure (A Matthew Healy story)

I'm trying

I tried to open my eyes but they felt so heavy. I felt as if I was floating and had no worries. This fuzzed world seemed better than all of reality. If I come to I'm going to have to face Matt eventually , I can't even bare to look at his face . I feel so betrayed and words could never explain the emotional pain I'm feeling . I decide to keep my eyes closed although in almost fully awake . I started to wonder if this is what it was like to be blind . I could hear the leaves shaking perfectly in the wind of the city night. I could feel the cool air wrapping around me. I felt as if all my other senses became stronger . For a moment I thought I wouldn't mind to go blind , I wouldn't have to face my problems literally. I'm took in my surroundings fully .

" This is all my fault. If I hadn't .....if I hadn't ..." The sobbing voice from early continues to repeat.

"Dude get over yourself , it's obvious this is your fault you crazy bastard . Always letting your feelings drive other people over the edge."

"I know man, I just thought she was different but everything she did reminded me of her. "

"Bro if she wanted you she would've tried as hard to come back to you as you're trying to get to her . Thats not happening is it ?"

"Can we not make this about me she is fucking bleeding out of her head that bastard dragged her down really hard. "

I think I heard a female voice amidst in the rapid talking.

"Guys shut up and call Josh to bring the fucking car . "

At that moment I realized it was Stacy's voice . And that only meant that the person holding me is Matthew. I instantly went into attack mode and with the little strength I had fought out of his arms. I tried to start my running marathon again but as soon as I stepped foot on the ground I felt light headed and felt everything get blurry. I couldn't see where I was going and passed out . I guess I was really bleeding from my head .

Matt's P.O.V

I called the gang to have a search party to find Lucy . My weak legs weren't going to make it on their own.

I could always depend on my friends even if all they did was smoke and drink. When it counts they're always there for me. Within 10 minutes all of them pull up in Josh's van. I got in a told Josh the direction to drive . I spotted her but we were at a stop light . Lucy was inches away from me and I was not letting a stop light prevent me from getting to her.

I got out of Josh's car and sprinted after Lucy. I turned the corner to find this guy bothering her .

"Hey bitch ! "

A raggedy man who looks in his mid 30's shouted at Lucy bluntly .

"I'll give you 30 seconds to get the fuck out my face and have a good night . Or I could bash your fucking face in with this pipe right next to me . Which is it ?" Lucy said way to calmly for a small girl like her being approached by what seem like a giant .

"Little lady I no think you should be the one giving "options" .

The bastard was slurring his words .

"I'll play baseball with you fucking skull buddy how many innings you think it'll take until you're bleeding out?" Lucy continued to say

This fucking weirdo crept towards her,with the dirtiest grin on his face. I started to run back to the van to get the rest of the gang only a street away. .

Lucy swung at him with so much force behind the swing.

"Guysss shessss a tuff one "

I knew I couldn't make it to the van in

time and have Lucy be okay. I ran back towards Lucy and when I came back there was a second guy holding Lucy's wrist and she bit him . I ran up behind the first guy with the pipe Lucy had thrown by accident and with all my force cracked the guy in the back of the head. I was not in shock I've been to gang fights all the time with Alex and Josh and one shout of pain didn't even make me flinch anymore. The second guy who had dragged Lucy to the ground was surely not getting any Mercy from me. I swung the pipe at his knee caps and kneed him in the head . I kicked him in the face just for the fact he had attempted to seriously harm Lucy. I immediately ran over to Lucy where she seemed to be passed out. The guy must've dragged her really ahead because she was bleeding from the back of her head.

I began to slowly cry . Everything was my fault all because I wasnt over something that happened years ago . I even tried to kill someone . What's wrong with me. The one good thing that almost changed me was now lying on the floor in front of me and I couldn't do anything to help her but cry. And tell her how sorry I was

"I'm sorry.....I'm sorry.....I'm sorry" I said between my sobs

Lucy P.O.V

I think I was in Josh's van. I felt someone's arms around me I was almost positive it was Matt's . After my first attempt I knew I was in no shape to fight him off. I was thankful that Matt came to save me. I know although he saved my life , he is the reason I was in that situation .

I slowly began to regain conscience and heard a faint beeping sound . I realized i was hooked up to one of those dumb machines . I opened my eyes and look over to my right and saw a young man sitting in the visitor chair looking at me as I began to sit up. He looked relieved as if he knew me in some way.

"Lucy its me Matt are you okay I know we have a lot to talk about but-"

"Mmmm who are you ?"

Okay guys I finished all my finals and stuff soooooo it's summer vacation so I'll update more frequently and longer thanks for all the support and don't forget to vote and comment 😁😁✌