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Zen X insecure reader

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Today was the big day, my boyfriend Zen secretly signed me up for acting additions. He just told me a couple of days ago. Today , yesterday and 2 days ago I was attempting to memorize my lines. I'm playing as cleopatra in Antony and Cleopatra. Zen is playing as Mark Antony.

Zen handed me a scrip and said "memories most of these by Thursday."
"W-what , how , what are these?" Being flustered.

I tried handling these lines in 3 days but I just couldn't. "He's the actor with stunning looks. I'm just useless, I have no talent, and my looks are pure ugliness. " I told myself.
"God Zen why do you do these things." I moaned out quietly.
Someone was nocking on my door.
"Come in." I said sounding tired.
The door opened and in came Zen. "Is my queen finished refreshing herself?" He said trying to be happy. "I can't do this , I can't act and certainly my looks don't help." I confessed.

"No no no [Y/N] your beautiful and very talented." He said rushing towards me, cuffing my cheeks. He kissed down on my lips. I slowly closed my eyes feeling safer.

"If you didn't want to do this you could have just told me." He said breaking the kiss.

"Y-yeah but I didn't want to disappoint you." I confessed more:P

"You never disappoint me [Y/N]." Zen smiled and walked out of the door.
I huffed and ... I felt a warm tear fall down my face. In the inside I know I'm going to fail but I want to have confidence in myself. I have to much self doubt.

I wiped away the little tear any walked out of the room. (you know them rooms with a big star on the door. Yeah your in there.)

I walked up to the line behind the curtains. I waited for about 10 mins. I've doubted my self so many times in the last few days, but right now . I feel like dying. I'm starting to sweet and I feel sleepy. I'm losing my balance even more. Plus these stupid heels make it worse. People might think I'm some drunk.

When they called my name I jumped. I felt like just running away. I barely remember my lines. I had some part I had a hard time with written on my hands. But there useless. In the corner of my eyes I saw Zen waving me on. I looked at him and gave him a slight smile.
***A lil time skip cuz everyone likes ihascupquakes***

I had finished my moment of torture and awkwardness. I saw Zen , he was walking towards me. He grabbed my hand and squeeze it.
"You did amazing babe." The albino said.
"Really? I think I did terrible."
"What no don't think negative."
I have blocked him out all I could hear we're negative outcomes. I knew he was saying nice things but, my doubt overwhelms me. So I just smiled and hugged him.
"Thanks Zenny." I unconsciously said.
The hug felt so ... warm and comforting. But all of it faded away when he was dragged by some director.
The director was complaining to Zen about running off.
"See you later babe." He said being dragged by some hippy director guy.
Reality snapped and I felt depressed every thing is a bust I'm surrounded my good looking people with talent and healthy life styles at a studio. I don't fit in here , I'm just an embarrassment. So I left , I didn't care if I made the spot anymore I'm probably there least favorite anyways.

I got out into the parking lot and got my phone out.

Hey Zen I'm leaving
the studio rn: [Y/N]

"He's probably busy." I thought to myself.
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A/N I didn't truly know how to approach this but I hope you all like it!
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