"I will keep loving you until the last day i live alexa mary cowell. Because baby YOU showed me that not all angels are flawless, they can be bent. You showed me that Angels can be broken."
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Alexa cowell has alway's been the type of girl that yo...
I heard the paps and the fans shouting as i walked down the red carpet, smiling and posing. Im wearing a long black dress that reached my toes with black bumps. My hair is dyed dark red and is in a very neat ponytail. I have a few bracelets on my arm and i have a purse in my hand.
I will never get use to this. The flashes, the screaming, the fans, the fame etc. Im just happy that i will get to do the thing that i love the most everyday; singing.
I can't describe how excited i am to performe my new song, 'dare to be different' on stage. This is my first ever award show and it hasn't even been a complete year! That's amazing.
I walked off the red carpet and i was lead to the huge arena with tables all over the place and a very nice stage in the middle.
I sat on one of the tables, next to gigi. Gigi is a victoria secret model that I met when i performed at the Victoria secret fashion show. She was really nice and from then, we started hanging out. "Oh my god, girl! You look stunning!" She squealed while examining my dress and makeup. "Thankyou, G. You look amazing" i smiled at her.
Honestly, gigi is gorgeous. She has blonde long hair and blue eyes. She was wearing a red long lacy dress with matching red heels. Her hair was curled from down and her makeup was simple. Overall, she looked beautiful.
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After watching some artists perform and some award winners, my body guard called me backstage so i could change into my performing outfit. I was nervous as hell.
I entered the changing room to find a very beautiful outfit on the hanger. I took it out quickly and wore it, looking at my self in the mirror. I smiled. Yeah, that's something I've learnt to do while looking at myself.
I did some poses for the pictures until it was time to go on stage.
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(A/N: i know that her hair is supposed to be red. I couldn't edit the pic so just ignore it)
I was given a red sparkly mic with a stand and they put a high chair in the middle of the stage. Slowly, i walked up when i heard my name bieng called.
I heard the music start and i sat down. "He walks to school, no body notices. He hides the bruises underneath his clothes" i started.
"His mum don't ask, and he won't tell all his friends. Nobody knows that he's breaking? Nobody knows where he's been. Everybody say's that he's broken. But i think, he's just bent. Oooh dare to be different" i sang, tears building up in my eye's..remembering all the memories.
"She walks to class, with a hoodie on. Behind the mask, she's worn so long" i sang, trying not to let the tears fall. "The teacher don't hear, all the rumours spread. Or the notebook sayin', how i wish i was dead"
Ok now, the tears are freely falling down my face. "Who will care that she's breaking? " i continued with the chores until i reached the last part.
"Who wrote the book on what is write? What makes me so wrong? I know my time here will be well spent, 'cause i dare, yeah i dare..
I dare to be different" i took the mic of from the stand and i got up. Walking down the stage. "Just another day, all the damage done. You never know how your words can cut someone..its time for us to care that they're breaking, it's time for us to care where they've been.
You might say that we're broken, but i think we're all a little bent. Yeah, yeaaah
Dare to be different, yeah i dare to be different" i finished, with tears still running down my cheeks. When i looked up to see everyone cheering and clapping, a small smile appeared on my face. I turned around and the host, james corden was standing there.
"Thankyou, alexa" he said, i smiled and walked off stage.
What a beautiful feeling to let all you've built up inside you out...
***** Harry's pov:
That was beautiful. I knew the moment she dropped the song that its about her past and about the bullying. You know that quote that says: 'you don't realize what you have until it's gone' yeah, i used to think that's shit. But now, i know that its true.
I really miss alexa. Im happy that she's living her dream right now, but she left me all alone.
From when i 'dated' her, i haven't been with a girl. I mean, yeah I've kissed and hooked up but nothing serious. I wasn't supposed to fall in love with her but its just impossible not to.
I remember once me and her went for a picnic and she told me that she wishes she has my life.
"Why?" I asked her, confused. There is nothing special about my life. She looked up at me with her gorgeous blue eyes. "Because you don't have to fight to survive everyday, you don't have to fake a smile or pretend your okay when you are not" she explained, a pained expression on her face. "You are very strong, alexa. I admire you" i smiled at her. "Thankyou, harry"
That was one of the many memories we had. I want her back so bad, i missed up big time.
As i thought about her, more memories came flooding back.
"Harry, are you ever going to leave?" She asked me, with tears in her eyes. "What do you mean? Im not leaving" i answered her. "Why? Everybody leaves. What makes you so different?" She rolled her eyes. "Im not, i promise" i hugged her.
Promise broken..
**** Alexa's pov:
It's the morning after Brit awards and i can't describe how wonderful yesterday was. Currently, im in the recording studio.
I have started writing this song called "something just like this". Its going really good, honestly.
"He said "where'd you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
Im not looking for some body with some superhuman gifts
Some superhero
Some fairytale bliss
Just something i can turn to
Somebody i can kiss,
I want something just like this"
I sang the chorus. This song meant so much to me, it describes how love isn't based on how wealthy you are or how strong you are. Its not based on impressing someone. Its based on loving someone unconditionally with all your heart.
I sighed, wishing i had that kind of love. "ALEXA!" i heard someone shout as they burst open the door. I looked up to be met by a panting harry with red cheeks. "Harry? What are you doing here? GET OUT!" I yelled the last part. "I sneaked in to see you" he smiled, his dimples showing.
"Harry i haven't seen you in like a year and you just come barging in telling me you wanted-" i was cut off by his lips crashing into mine. I pulled away with no hesitation. "How could-" i started.
"Just shutup and kiss me" he said, pulling me in again.
