Where The Wind Blows

Chapter 17.

Being alone was something I had become used to. It was like a norm that applied only to me, Hailey was right about every single thing she said. But, she missed out the part where I take too much from people and give very little. Never did I ever try to put myself in Elisa's shoes, i just felt that she was my friend and that's what friends do. But I was wrong, she had to leave her peaceful life behind because of me. Because of the choices I made and I didn't really appreciate her as much as I should have. Maybe that's why she left, maybe it's a good thing she did. Simply put she has a life and I don't. I've been to selfish and blind towards the knowledge of it. The older I got, the more reluctant I felt to run. I was trying to hide and deny the simple fact which was the truth. I was tired of running, but I still had to. I knew everyone was going to die one day, some day but I wanted to die a peaceful death. It's the least I deserved and Valdes wasn't going to offer that. I was certain. With Elisa back in Mexico, I didn't even know how to feel about that. I was happy, scared, angry, sad and lonely. All at the same time, lots of emotions were running through me, through my mind. I felt lost, I looked calm and put together on the outside but on the inside I was crashing.

I walked towards the door leading to the restaurant and entered. Wearing this outfit was awkward, too awkward. I didn't even remember how it felt like to put on a gown and the looks I got from my coworkers weren't exactly 'helping'. Kelvin, one of my co-workers that I hardly said a word too just as I did the rest, stared at me like I was dressed up in just leaves, sewn together by a thread and needle. Like some Adam and Eve level. I raised my eyebrow and gave him a stare that boldly spelt out, 'look-at-me-like-that-one-more-time-and-your-eyes-would-cease-to-exist'. Somehow he got the drift as he immediately went ahead tending to people who needed to be attended to.

That didn't stop others from staring though and of course the unnecessary giggles from the females.

Thank you Spence. Thank you. I was grateful he helped me out and all but he had known me for a while already! I don't wear things like this. Hailey was no where to be found, not like she'll want to be anywhere close to me right now.

I walked outside only to find the reason for my embarrassment going through his phone and smiling. The red haired man who did me the favor of spilling coffee was held hostage by the guards and his face was almost the color of his hair. He was saying something to himself that I couldn't quite hear. Probably boasting about us not knowing who he is or what he can do. He should leave already, I had gotten too much attention, it's enough. I remembered telling Becky this, why is he still here?

"Why is he still here?" I asked from behind him, making him to face me in a hurry while sliding his phone into his pocket. He looked nervous, like a teenager whose mum just walked in on him watching porn.

"Don't do that woman. Damn!" He said drawing a deep breath and keeping his eyes everywhere away from me. Definitely nervous.

"Don't do what?" I asked oblivious of what he meant.

"Sneaking up on people. That's creepy, you scared me. Almost."

I smiled, "I scared you? Why do I like the sound of that? I should do that more often. Don't you agree?"

"No, I don't agree with you scaring me but yes I agree with you wanting to be my friend now. This is a good change."

I scrunched my eyebrows and gave a smile, not understanding the connection. "I never said I wanted to be your friend Matthews."

He grinned,"Okay so we are on surname basis now? Okay. You never indicated it directly. You said you wanted to sneak up on me again, you've got to be friends or something more with someone to keep doing that. I don't think ordinary neighbors do that. Do they?"