chapter 7 alex
"so tell me more about you and blake" i said. i was really dieng to know more about blake and his family. the letters simply didn't cover it.
"ah uhh no. you see here's how it's gonna work . i see if you're good enough for justin . if and only if you pass do you have any right to ask questoins. got it" she asked . wow she really cares about justin .
" okay shoot" i reply.
" why are you dead." angel asked
" do you want to know how i died ? beacuse if you do i committed sucide. but if you want to know why i commited sucide....." i trailed off.
" i want to know why you commited sucide" she said in a frim vocie that scared me.
" i commited sucide because my life was hard okay ! you see there were a lot of scandels and a lot of drama. okay here it goes..My life was far from perfect. But people never knew that . They were just far too busy with their own problems to notice.Even my own parents didn't have time for me. They always fought and on the day of my sixteenth birthday they had their biggist fight ever. It was also the day they said they were getting devoreced. They had a big custody fight over me and in the end my mom won. After that my mom and me got closer . My dad got remarried to my school princable. But their marriage didn't last. My dad got drunk alot and started having an affair with the school secertary. They had a big custody fight over me too , but in the end my mom being a laywer won and I only got to visit my ex- stepmom everyother weekend. But after awhile i started getting bad grades for no reason. The reason is that my ex-stepmom was changing my grades. So then she got fired and I had to take the whole grade over not because i was stupid but because they didn't know how long she'd been changing my grades. All the good grades could've been fake. But i took the year over in a different highschool. I wasn't one of those popular girls with all the fake friends. And they didn't really care about me. But they cared enough to tease me when they got the chance. I wasn't pretty but i wasn't ugly ethier.Somehow though I ended up with a hot boyfriend. He was popular but his crowd of friend never liked me even when I was supposted to have the same staus. One day my boyfriend wanted sex. I politely said that i wasn't ready to lose my virginity quite yet.Then he just lost it. He said that without him I sure as hell wouldn't be where I am now, that I at least owe it to him to give him this much.That's when he hit me. It felt like the world around me was spinning out control, it felt like it was going to be the end of me. I would have been happy to die there instead of going through the pain i knew would follow. I felt something pushing in and out of me fast and hard it hurt so much i wanted to cry but i just couldn't , the tears wouldn't come. When I woke up I was lying on the street nude. A police car came by and saw me. He asked me what happened , and so I told him what I did know.And then he said " Well from what you've told me I think you've been raped". That's when the tears came pouring down. They were unstoppable . He calmly asked me if I wanted to press charges. I somehow managed to get out a quiet yes.He said that i could also place a restraining order against my now ex boyfriend. And then of course I said yes .You see after he got put in jail I gave up tring on life. It broke me. I never went out anymore unless someone was with me . And because of that I was going crazy from staying inside. I didn't have any friend to support me . My mom tried to help but gave up when she saw where it was going. I knew she saw it coming . It was a slient message in our eyes mine saying that i was sorry but that I just couldn't take it anymore. Hers saying that it was okay and that as long that i was happy. One day when no one was home i filled the bathtub with water and slitted my wrists. I commited suicide. I died smiling , knowing that i wouldnt have to be afraid of him coming after me. next questoin." i finshed out of breath. for a second she seemed deep in thought , too deep for words. yep she was shocked well by most of my story.
" is that the only boyfriend you had ?" she asked accuseinly. i rolled my eyes.
" yes what do you think i was some slut ! ! ! ! ? you know what here's all you need to know that i would die all over again for your brother ! got it . good now it's my trun to ask questoins" i said frimly " questoin one where did you and blake meet"
" we met at the graveyard on justin's birthday. i was bringing his yearly gift when i saw blake visiting his grandma so we talked and here we are" she replied.
" smart ass " i muttered
chapter 7 prt 2 angel
uggh the nerve of that girl . stealing my brotheraway like that. she soo doesn't deserve him. i mean who is she to questoin me . uggh the nerve . and showing up with my brother one the most important day of my life EARLY !! the nerve . little spoiled rich girl . in case you haven't noticed my name is angel faith camron . i was born in raised in this town and my brother commited suicide when i was 13 . every day when i need adivice since that day i go to his grave and i see him on his birthday i leave presents and cake there too. i mean i love my big bro . i only want the best for him and the best is not this girl. he could do so much better than that. date an earth girl for all i care just not her i mean she looks so freakin emo
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