Ninjago: This is Only the Beginning

Don't Blame Yourself

Lloyd's POV

I looked at him with scared eyes. I didn't want to be here! I didn't want to go back!"

" Lloyd!" Kai yelled, and just when he was about to run to me, a shield of some sort block him. " What the!" he yelled.

Cole shook his head, and looked at him. " This is Lloyd's fight, Kai....Zane's trying to help him forgive himself...Just trust him.." he whispered, nodding his head at me.

" What do you want from me?!" I yelled at my 'other self'.

*Come on, you know that I'm just a part of you, and once you let the darkness in...it can never come out.* he smirked.

" Shut up! I'm not you!" I yelled at him.

*But you said it yourself, what Morro left in us can never leave! Zane's blood is stained on our hands forever!* he yelled at me.

I felt myself shaking.... " I didn't chose this.." I whispered.

*Really, how can you be so sure?* he asked further.

" Because Zane is my brother, and he will always be my family!" I yelled back at him. " I would never hurt my family!"

*But you killed him..*

I felt my heart tearing in two. " I.....I..."

I could feel the others looking at me, I could feel how I was being watched....I couldn't lie to myself any longer...

So I didn't...

" I would never want to hurt Zane, I never wanted any of this to happen! I let down so many people in my life! I hurt my Mom, my Uncle, my Father....and now I lost my Brother! I caused so much pain in my life, and I'm at the fault of all of them! I let the darkness that a hold of me, and I wasn't strong enough to stop him! I wasn't strong enough to stop him from killing Zane!" I paused a bit. " I blamed myself for so long, I cried myself to sleep because I felt guilty....I shouldn't be the one under a roof, and in a bed! I should be the one dead, maybe I should be banished into the Nether world! I should be the one along forever! Not Zane! He did nothing to deserve this! And if Zane could hear me now, I want him to know that I'm sorry! I'm so sorry Zane!!!" I yelled, falling to my knees. Tears began to fall from my cheeks, and I could feel my heart falling apart.

The possessed me looked at me with dark eyes. * So do you still think you're a murder? I can see that you still blame yourself for not stopping him!* he hissed at me.

I didn't know what to do now....I still blame myself, but then I remember the Overlord....the moment Zane ' died' None of us had the chance to stop him, and none of us made Zane do that.

It was his choose......He promised all of us that he will give his life to protect his family!

The Rage of War.....He wasn't called that because of his fierce might.....no, he was called that because of his fierce love for us....

His selfless love for all of us, and with that love he made the choice to save us....

The save me....

" Zane....he made his choice to go...but now I'm going to make my choice!!!" I yelled, and jumping to my feet I kicked Morro down to the ground.

*What are you doing?!* the ghost yelled.

" I wasn't strong enough to defeat you then, but now I know that now I'm stronger than ever to defeat you!" I yelled, and as he got up. I attacked him again.

Morro growled, and came running at me at full force. *You won't get rid of me that easily!* he hissed.

" Argh!!!" my eyes glowed with a bright green light, and I looked at him. " You are not a reflection of me.....you're only a reflection of my fear and regret.."