crush ⚣ joshler [✔︎]

two

the annoying sound of my alarm goes on once again, this time i sit up in the cold room instead of snoozing and "warm myself up" as i tend to call it.
after sitting there for what felt like an eternity my mom knocks on my door gently.
-sweetie are you up? she asks through the door. all i get out is a raspy "yes". she opens the door silently and walk in. her body weighs down my bed lightly but i almost fall onto her lap because of how small i am.
-happy birthday sweetheart. she said gently and gave me a comforting side-hug. i had totally forgotten about that.
-thanks mom. love you. i said in response.
-i love you too. she gave me another one of those proud mom-smiles.
-i made you waffles by the way. she continued as she stood up.
-yay! i love waffles. i squealed in a happy tone.
-i know, that's why i made them. i could literally feel the smile even though i was facing her back while she walked out.

i put on some black skinny jeans and a grey hoodie, which hanged loosely on my upper body, and began walking to the kitchen, to my beloved waffles.

-thank you so much mom, the waffles were really good! bye, see you later. i screamed across the apartment.
-okay bye honey have a great day!
i walked out and decided i should walk to school because why not? my first class is in 40 minutes and it just takes 20 minutes to walk so whatever, it's great to walk too so.

i entered the school with a sigh. it was so warm in here compared to outside. i mean it is winter now, december just started.
i get to the lockers without seeing anyone on the way there, it was kind of relieving.
i get so bored so i call ashley.
-hey ash! i say happily.
-good morning birthday kiddo! she says in response in a raspy voice.
-what? you just woke up? i ask with a tint of disappointment in my voice.
-yep.
-awh fuck off. i end the call and decide to call jenna instead. but no answer of course, she never answers. i'll just wait here all by myself.

i heard a beautiful laugh by the end of the hall and recognized it immediately. i opened my locker and tried to hide a little. the laugh came closer and i could feel my palms starting to sweat.
suddenly someone kicked my locker and it closed directly with a big bang.
-hey fag! brendon stupid ass urie called out.
-h-hey. i stutter out as i look down at the ground in shame.
-why so nervous t-t-t-tyl-l-l-l-ler? he fake stuttered out and everyone besides josh laughed.
-you on your period fag? he continued on. everyone laughed even harder. i just looked down on the ground and felt some tears forming in the back of my eyes. i held my breath so that the tears wouldn't make us all drown in that stupid hallway.
-aw is the fag gonna cry now? brendon said in an fake sympathetic tone.
-hey guys leave him alone. let's go. josh speaked up and pushed the boys a little, motioning the to get going and they all did. i let my breath out and looked at them with a blurry sight. josh looked back at me as well, he mouthed 'i'm sorry' and started talking with his friends again.
that probably made me fall in love even more with him. no one has ever done something like that for me earlier.