crush ⚣ joshler [✔︎]

eight

i walk to the lockers thoughtfully, but stop when i hear people yelling at each other. they sound annoyed. i soon realize that one of them is josh, so i try to walk as quiet as i can and stay silent.
-YOU HAVE TO DO IT! the other person yelled, i think it was ryan's voice i was hearing but i wasn't sure. what was he talking about though??
-i can't! the boy is in love! josh yelled back.
-that makes it even better. you are gonna do it. i swear to god josh we've all been waiting so long for something to happen. ryan wasn't yelling anymore, he still sounded as annoyed and angry as earlier though.
-i'm sure that if he has smoked and shit before he has definitely had sex. josh said, was he talking about me? is he using me?
-LISTEN JOSH YOU'RE GONNA DO EXACTLY AS PLANNED. ryan started yelling again.
-N- josh was cut off by me, walking towards them, clearing my throat nervously. i didn't want to hear more. i was gonna ignore the fact that he's probably using me from now on. i never heard that.
-oh hi ty. josh says, forcing out a fake smile and rubbing his neck softly. ryan turns around drastically and look at me in panic.
-hey. i simply respond.
-how much did you hear? was all that ryan said, with a heavy sigh afterwards.
-i don't know, i was caught up in my own world, i didn't really listen to you guys. is there something you wanna tell me? i asked, trying to look questioning. but inside i was a nervous wreck.
-oh no. we were just arguing about some personal stuff. ryan explained.
-okay. can i steal josh for a second? i asked ryan and he nodded happily, smirking at josh. i grabbed josh's wrist lightly and pulled him away.
-i-i need t-to talk to you. i stuttered out without really knowing what i could possibly say. i was just trying to save the moment but now i need to tell him something. oh isn't my life great.
-okay, go ahead. he said, smiling of course.
-actually, i want to go somewhere more private. i explained, just to get some time to think about what i should talk about. he nodded in response so i grabbed his wrist again and walked to the janitors closet. he looked at me mysteriously.
-i-i-i, i started, but i still haven't thought of something.
-just tell me dreamer boy. he said lightly, stroking my cheek. i threw my lips at his and started kissing him, at first i didn't get a respond but soon after he started kissing me too. the kiss heated a little, he bit my lip lightly, a small moan fell out of my mouth accidentally. i felt him smiling through the kiss. he continued on biting and licking my lower lip until i suddenly pulled away. he looked at me a little surprised but mostly confused. i just kissed him in the moment i didn't wanna make this into a hot make out session.
-sorry. i said and took a few steps back. he pulled me forward again and looked at me right in the eyes.
-don't say sorry baby. he looked down at my lips and gently brushed his finger over them.
-i-i think class starts soon. i said in attempt to get away from the awkward moment.
-let's skip.
-i-i-i don't know.. i felt my palms starting to sweat because of nervousness.
-why not? he asked sadly.
-i-i uhm it's not good. i tried to come away with.
-awh come on. don't be such a pussy. he whined.
-i'm certainly not gonna go skip with you when you call me pussy, jerk. i said and tried to push him out of the way so i could get out.
-i'm sorry. he said, he sounded so convincing. i just nodded and accepted his apology.
-so what should we do? he asked happily.
-i don't know. you suggested skipping in the first place. i said a little irritated but chuckled afterwards to not piss him off or something.
-yeah that's true. he chuckled nervously and looked at me with his dreamy eyes. i don't want to believe that he's really just using me. he likes me, right? i mean the way he looks at me is so convincing. i know that this is gonna hurt me so bad in the end. but it's worth it. and he could've talked about someone else.. right?
-hey! josh snapped me back to reality.
-oh shit. i'm so sorry.
-it's okay dreamer boy. josh laughed and stroked my cheek.
-now let's go! he almost yelled out and pulled me out of the janitors closet.

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a/n
wow another bad ending by me. i'm so shitty lmao sorry
also sorry that i haven't posted any chapters for awhile but i've been pretty stressed since i'm going to spain today. (for you it'll probably be yesterday bc i'm writing this as i'm sitting in the van from sweden to spain.)
but anyways, this fic has gained a lot of readers lately, tysm! if any of you ever need to tAlk, feel free to message me!
stay street,
stay strong,
stay alive! |-/