crush ⚣ joshler [✔︎]

thirteen

an absolutely stunning girl stood in the doorway, drooling over josh. i started to get a little annoyed so i walked up to them. the girl stuttered out some confusing sentence, clearly nervous by josh's presence. i mean he was hot as hell right now, he wore a tight t-shirt, revealing his form and some black ripped skinny jeans.
-excuse me? josh asked, confused as well.
-oh sorry, uhm my parents are trying to sleep in the room next to you and they're pretty annoyed by you so they sent me here to tell you that i guess. but don't worry about them. she chuckled nervously and bit her lip soon after. that's when i lost it.
-okay, we'll be quiet. bye! i pushed josh away and closed the door harshly.
-ooh, feisty. someone's jealous.  josh smirked, i looked at him with an annoyed look as he formed the sentences, he just put his hands up in defense and laughed a little bit. soon someone knocked on the door again. this time i opened it, trying to put on the friendliest smile i have. but it dropped as soon as i saw the girl in the doorframe, looking annoyed.
-who the hell do you think you are? she screamed in my face.
-i don't think i am someone, i just know i'm me. was there anything else you wanted, hoe? i put on the friendly smile again and looked at her, who was absolutely shocked.
-what did you just call me? she asked, with the most bitchy voice i've ever heard.
-hoe. at that she gave me a hard slap on my chin. josh quickly walked between us.
-hey hey hey! no need to fight over me because i already have a boyfriend. so young lady can you please leave? he looked at the girl with calm eyes. my lips curled up into a smugly smile.
-sleeping with whores doesn't count as having a relationship, honey. she said as she looked at me with a bitchy expression on her face.
-oh, honey.. it's okay, i don't sleep with people like you. he smiled and closed the door in her face.
-you called me your boyfriend. i said shyly as he looked at me with his dreamy eyes.
-did it bother you? he asked with a smirk.
-no! i mean i didn't really care. i tried to save myself with but a deep blush was already spreading along my cheeks.
-yeah right. his voice was filled with sarcasm and his face still wore that pretty smirk of his.
-it's true! i screamed but only to be scoffed at jokingly by the boy in front of me.
-yeah, yeah, yeah.. now go get a shower you lil' butt.

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as tyler got in the shower i started to browse through my phone. soon i got a message i did not want to see right now.

brendon
joshyyy, you're so disappointing. i mean if you just fucked the poor boy and killed him none of this would've happened. or if you didn't just fucking kill my mother.

me
listen psycho, first of all you asked me to fucking rape him and kill him later on because well you're a psychopath. not because i killed your mom. and you fucking know why i killed your mom so quit it.

brendon
oh josh.. you were like my fucking brother and she was like your mom too. it's not like someone just told you to kill her and you did it like nothing. the boy i knew would never even think about that.

me
you don't know what they fucking did to me before i killed her. i had no choice.

brendon
i'm gonna fucking kill you and tyleretta idgaf about what they did to you because you probably deserved it.

-josh! tyler's voice sounded through the little apartment. i immediately got up, worry forming in my gut. as i neared the bathroom i could hear small sobs escaping the small boy.
-what happened? i asked when i saw tyler laying on the floor in pain, only a towel wrapped around him.
-i fell. he cried, hugging his knee intensely.
-aw, it's okay dreamer boy. i embraced him lightly and carried him to the soft bed.
-josh.. he looked down at the floor as he said my name shyly.
-yes, love?
-wh-why are you c-crying? only now i realized the tears along my cheeks. i dried them off in a rush and looked at the boy who now felt bad. the traumatizing memories played in my head again, soon i felt tears draining my cheeks. i never cried and to cry in front of tyler, no. no. no.
-i'm sorry. he said while hurrying to me and hugging me tightly.