What happened to us? (mattina)

Ch. 23

matthew and christina woke up a few hours ago, christina was taking a shower and matthew was downstairs drinking tons of beer and wine, he was so drunk he could barely stand on his feet

christina got out of the shower and made her hair, makeup, and changed into her leggings and t-shirt

she went downstairs and saw matthew with 8 empty beer bottles on the table

"matthew, you're not suppose to be drinking" she said walking over to him

"why not" he said drunk

"the doctor said to not drink for 7 days babe" she threw away all the empty beer bottles and sat next to him

"dont worry about me christina" he said loudly and put his arm around her and kissed her cheek

"my god matthew, go rest upstairs baby, you're really drunk" she ran her fingers through his hair

"no i'm... i'm okay" he said closing his eyes

she sighed and got up but he pulled her back down "i love you baby" he kissed her cheek again "do you love me?" he asked smiling

"yes i do" she tried to get out of his grip

"you what" he said letting her go

"i love you" she smiled

"come on, lets go upstairs and fuck" he got up and pulled her arm softly

"no, you go upstairs and sleep for a little bit" she said letting his hand go

"no, i want you" he pulled her to him and grabbed her ass

"you can have me when you're sober" she pushed him away lightly by the waist

he grunted "christinaaaaa!" he whined

"calm down, now go" she pointed to the stairs

"if you come with me i'll go!" he yelled

"stop yelling" she sighed and looked at him "i'll be up later" she said

"come!!" he yelled

"no!" she yelled back

"why are you yelling at me?!" he yelled and got closer

"because you're annoying!" she shot back at him

he grabbed her arm hard and pulled her to his face "i'm annoying?" he said coldly

she felt herself tense up and tried to get his hand off of her arm "i'm sorry" she said

he grabbed her arm tighter and left a bruise there "you scared?" he asked quietly

she felt her eyes tear up and one tear fell

he pulled her closer by the arm and looked her in the eye "does that hurt?" he asked referring to her arm

he squeezed it tighter

she nodded 'yes' and looked down as a few tears fell

he lifted her chin and saw the tears in her eyes "it'll hurt more next time if you dont keep your mouth shut" he let go and pushed her out of the way and she rubbed her arm

he went upstairs and fell asleep on their bed, christina sat on the couch and let her tears fall for a few minutes, he didn't beat her like last time but he still hurt her alot

she got up and went to the bathroom to clean herself up, she saw the handprint that was left my matthew and it would probably go away in a few days

she sighed and walked back to the couch and fell asleep watching tv for a few hours

5 hours later....

matthew woke up and took a shower, he was sober now and remembered how he hurt christina and went downstairs and saw her sleeping on the couch, he walked over to her and saw the huge bruise on her arm and rubbed his forehead "damn it" he whispered to himself

christina heard him and slowly woke up, she sat up and saw him sitting there and backed herself up on the couch slowly and wrapped her arms around herself

he looked at her and a tear fell from his eye "i'm sorry" he said quietly

she looked at him but didn't say anything

he stood up and sat next to her, their bodies were a few inches apart from each other, she tensed up a little and looked down so she didn't have to face him

"i'm so sorry" he said and looked at her

her eyes got watery and a tear fell from her eye to the couch, he saw the tear fall and hated himself in that moment, he hurt her again

"baby" he lifted her chin with his finger and saw the tears in her eyes

she looked qt him and saw the tears in his eyes too, she felt a few more tears roll down her cheek and rubbed her arm softly and looked down again

"please, i'm so sorry" he said and carressed her cheek "i was drunk-" she cut him off "i know, dont worry" she said quietly as a few more tears fell

"i hurt you again... how am i not suppose to worry" he said

"i'm not leaving you...so dont worry" she said quietly again

he lifted her chin "i'm so sorry baby" he said again and looked into her eyes

she looked into his eyes and another tear fell "you promised"

"i know... i'm sorry, please forgive me" a few tears fell from his eyes noticing how much pain he's ever caused her

"i was really drunk" he said

she wiped her tears away and looked at him again "you shouldn't have been drinking anyways..." she sighed "oh- i have to change your bandage" she said and was about to get up but he stopped her

"wait... i- i hurt you christina, and you're worried about my arm?" he said looking at her

"you have a huge cut, of course i'm worried" she said with a straight face

he smiled weakly at her "wow... i really dont deserve you" he said and looked down

"what" she looked at him

"i dont... christina you're hurt badly, i could've broken your arm for gods sake, and you're still more worried about me, i dont think i'll ever be good enough for you chris, i love you so much... i- i just cant hurt you anymore" he said as a tear fell "listen, i love you more than anything in this world, i dont want to hurt you anymore, i cant hurt you anymore christina, i'll leave now if you want me to-" she cut him off

"no! no i dont want you to leave" she said as tears fell from her eyes

"dont you hate me? look at all the things i did to you" he said

"i dont hate you" she said and touched his cheek softly "i know, you did hurt me alot but- but i love you... so much" a few more tears fell "please dont leave" she cried more

he hugged her tight "hey, i'm not leaving, i just thought you hated me after all of these things i did" he said

"i could never hate you" she said and hugged him back and she stopped crying

"i love you so much, i'm sorry for everything" he said

"it's okay, i love you too" she said

he kissed her lips softly and she kissed him back

"now, i have to change your bandage" she said

they both walked to the kitchen and she wrapped his arm in a new bandage and threw the old one away

he smiled at her while she put the gauze away, she turned around and saw him staring at her "what?" she asked sweetly

"nothing... you're too beautiful" he said smiling

a small smile appearred on her face "thank you" she said

"you're welcome" he said and kissed her cheek softly "i love you" he said and hugged her

"i love you too" she said and hugged him back

they stayed like that for a while and went to sleep upstairs

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