Social Butterfly + k.th ✔️

distraction

It was still early in the morning,
But sweats were already rolling down on my cheeks because of the energy I put out in order to make this lunch box.

Light footsteps were heard heading downstairs and revealed Haneul's sleepy face,

"Morning", I greeted her as she yawned then nodded in response

"You're up early", she sat on one of the stool and grabbed a glass of water beside me

"You too"

She shrugged, "I woke up because I keep on hearing noises from the kitchen. I thought it was a rat or something"

I laughed at her assumption, "I'm making lunch for Taehyung, didn't I tell you already?"

"Oh yeah", she said while taking a strawberry, "No wonder you keep bugging me about recipes. What's the occassion?"

"He's taking the college entrance exam today", I flatly answered as Haneul sprung from her seat

"Really? But you said he didn't want to"

"Yeah, he changed his mind, fortunately", I smiled but soon it faltered

"So", Haneul cleared her throat, "How about you and him? Decided to do the long distance?"

My hands that was holding the lunch box went trembling a bit, "I-I don't know"

"What do you mean, you don't know?" she confusedly asked, "He applied to a college nearby and you're going to K-NUA. That is like miles apart"

I looked at Haneul with such hope that she understood my unwillingness to talk about this, "It'snotcertainthatI'mgoingtoKNUA"

"Huh? Talk like a human, Hera"

I rubbed the back of my head and avoided her gaze, "I-It's not certain that I'm going to KNUA and I might or mightn't have told him about it?"

Haneul stared blankly at me for a while, letting her just-functioned brain process my statement,

"WHAT?" I flinched at her reaction. I knew she would be surprised, but not to this extent, "You've got to be kidding me"

"I mean, like I told you before, nothing is fix yet and there's plently nearby college that can qualify to be as good as KNUA-"

"Hera", she stood up, "You've been dreaming on going to KNUA since little. You would always squealed in happiness every time we walked passed that college when we lived in Seoul"

"I know, but.."

"But Taehyung, I get it", she didn't seem pleased, "I know he's important to you, too"

"He has been through a lot and I told you about his sister, he needs me, sis", I can't help but to tear up as she sighed deeply

"This is your future we're talking about. Call me the bad guy but", she paused, "You didn't know if Taehyung's the one or not. He might be now, but what if you both are not meant to be, huh? You wasted your golden opportunity for him then what? It's back to us having nothing"

I only stood there silently, chewing hard on my lips as she continued spilling her inner thoughts

"I couldn't pursue my passion because I have to earn money for the both of us, but it's okay. I can help you achieve yours", she held my shoulder, "Think about yourself as well, Hera. This is your life and if Taehyung really loves you, he'll understand"

She was disappointed, I can tell. The way she slumped her back as she decided to head back upstairs and leave me in the kitchen alone,

"Please think about it carefully Hera", she glanced one last time before walking away